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Here is a little back story. So, ever sense my cousin and I were little; we have always had a great love for each other. We have been secretly together sense we were twelve years old. We are both twenty-two, now, and every much in love with each other.  We have always done everything together, so when it came to college we both chose the same university. Like always, we wanted to stay together, but at the time the university did not allow mixed male and female dorms, but sense we were first cousins the university housing department was going to allow us an exception to live together in the same dorm. The only thing was that they could not find the room to accommodate our exception. So, my father rented us a nice three bedroom apartment that we share with a roommate. We both have similar majors, so we were able to take most of our lower level and general education class together. We have about one more year left to go until we finish our bachelor's degrees.
Okay, so, over this weekend we went up to her mother’s, my aunt’s beach house. My mother and aunt decided that they were going to go to a movie somewhere down on the other side of town, and try a new restaurant that just opened up. That meant that they would be gone for at least three hours. So, it was just my cousin and I alone. We decided to go down to the beach for a little while due to the nice weather. Sadly, the water was still a bit too cold to swim, so we went for a jog instead. We jogged out of view from the rest of the beach houses and stopped to make out for a little bit. Now, in the mood, we ran back playing and wrestling the whole time (just playing). Naturally, when you play on the beach you get sand all over yourself. We went back to the house to shower and clean up. At that point we had two hours before my mother and aunt was to come back. We took a shower together to clean up, and while we were in the shower we did it. She got off first, and the water was getting cold, so we got out of the shower. We dried off a little bit to put some of our clothes on. Knowing that I had not gotten off yet, she pushed me up against wash machine and started to perform fellatio on me. It was not long after that to where I was about to go. I told her I was about to go and she me to go on her to go on chest; so I went. While we were in the shower my mother and aunt came back. We did not hear them come in at all, but they sure as hell heard us, and we were not exactly being quiet. Planning to on fully getting dress in her room, we walked out of the bathroom sharing a towel and kissing. Well, they were sitting on the other end of the room. With blank expressions on their faces for a minute that seemed to last forever. Then my aunt said, “Damn, I knew you two where kissing cousin, but I didn't know you guys did that.” Then my mother asked when she could see the one eyed three armed baby, and it was pretty much left at that. Shortly after that they left again, but remarked on their way out to use a condom, and that they are going to call before they come back. We decided to go back to our apartment. On the way back of our four hour drive to our apartment we had a deep conversation about our relationship. We love each other very much, and want to be together.
The next day, our roommate told us that he was going out of town and would be back after class on Monday. This being early Saturday morning meant that my cousin and I would have to apartment to ourselves for the whole weekend. Knowing that my cousin was feeling a little depressed about the day before. I decided to take her out for a surprise date. I had saved up a nice chunk of money for a special date. I got on the horn and put as much as I could manage together. Later that evening, I went and grabbed her favorite dress and pair of shoes, and asked her to do up her makeup and put it on for me.  Luckily, she was finished getting ready about the same time the shuttle pulled up. I took her by the hands and gave her a kiss, then tied a blind folded over her eyes, and walked her to the shuttle. We drove across the bay to another city. I took her an upscale restaurant that she has always wanted to try, and had the restaurant have our food prepared before we arrived, and have a velvet red rope around our table. I took the blind fold off to revile to her the restaurant; she was very excited and pleased. After dinner, I took her back to the shuttle. We then went to the theater to watch a short play and a few skits. Letting her think the night was over I then surprised her again by taking her to a wine testing and tour of a local winery. After that went to a few local night clubs and a scenic boardwalk where could see both the city skyline and the stars. I had gotten her mind completely off the day before. She was now the happiest girl in the world. When we got back to our apartment she told me it was now time for my surprise. While she changed, I went and put the wine in the ice box of the freezer. I could not find the nice wine glasses, so I went to go look in my room. They were not there, but I saw some other stuff that I could also use like handcuffs, silk rope, oils, lubricant, and, other such stuff of that nature. She called out that she was ready to give me my surprise. I told her that I was just going to be one minute looking for the wine glasses. She came out with the wine glasses, wearing a see through lingerie corset, thigh high stockings, small thong, and, garters, with bows and lace all over. I took her right there in the living room all night long. After the eighth time that night we were done, and decided to watch a movie. While watching the movie we both feel asleep. So, early Sunday morning comes around and our roommate comes back. He saw us sleeping all cuddled up on the floor with a little blanket, few sex toys, the stuff from my room, bottle of wine, two wine glasses, and, the way she was dressed, surrounding us on almost all sides. When we woke up our roommate was making eggs. He asked if we wanted some and we said no, thank you, and he brought my cousin one her bath robes. He still talks to us like he saw nothing but it still feel a bit award.
What should we do? Technically no one has seen us doing anything sexual, so could we make something up? If so What? Should we just be honest and tell everyone about us? We have been together for almost ten years. We love each other very much, and put a lot of time into our relationship. Everything always feels new, and we never fight. What we have is perfect and we are not giving it up.

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What you have may be something very special- however, in this society it is seen as wrong and even illegal- so I would recommend to keep it low key and if no one say anything about it, just treat it as if it's no one's business (which it ain't).
Don't go out of your way to announce it to the world- cause you know once you do that, you're inviting bad reactions.
The world will generally let you be if you keep a low profile.

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