About Dwayne Anderson Expertise I know much about abusive relationships as I have some with members of my family. Come to me if you need assistance with your relationship problems.
Experience Experiencing abusive relationships with family.
Question i have experienced every single form of abuse: , phsyical, sexual, verbal, neglect,and emotional. If there is a form for it then i have experienced it. All of the forms except for the sexual abuse was by my mother and my next door neighbor. To give you an idea of what i am talking about, my mother used to beat me with the switches that our neighbor used pick out for no reason and to entertain her friends, have me stand with my arms outstretched for hours on end while tormenting and laughing at me, dress me in dresses and sit me on the front step outside for everyone to make fun of me, punch me in my face numerous times and then threaten to do more harm to me if i told anyone and then later brag to her friends about it. There are numerous examples and some are much more severe than those. Well anyway for the past ten years or so, she claims to have forgotton everything and she treats me now like how i have always wanted her to treat me,.like a person who is worthy of respect and i was sucked into it for a while. But now, the older i get, the more flashbacks i have and i feel, even though its so far removed that i will never ever be able to forgive her and my neighbor for what they did to me. However now, i get mad at myself and get very internally conflicted because she does try to be nice to me and i have been told that i am holding a grudge. But i still cannot find it no where within myself to forgive her and i feel bad that i cant. I just feel so scarred, damaged, and hurt and out of all the people who are supposed to love me no matter what, she didnt. Anyway is it "normal" for me to be getting these flashbacks when the abuse is so far removed? Do i still have a right to be upset and hurt even though it was so long time ago and even though she has been kinder to me?
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Answer this indeed is child abuse that you were put through. There are other forms of abuse that your mother put you through, including physical, mental, verbal, and emotional. Talk to someone you know and trust to take the first step towards security.
While the bible says we must honour our mother and father, the laws of society forbid abuse of any kind. Your anger is perfectly justified due to your experiences. However, if your mother is no longer being abusive, then perhaps you should learn to let bygones be bygones because holding a grudge and storing all that anger is very unhealthy.
