Expert: Druideck - 11/1/2010

Question
i think i have it iv been a heavy drinker off an on for
10years an have tried many times to stop now my two eldest
sons have moved out cause they don't understand why i cant
stop , iv had a few falls over the years an twice down the
stairs an once had my head split open by a breaking . last
Thursday i fell down the stairs an hurt my head an neck this
time i was to embarrassed to go to the doctor so iv stayed
in bed cringing with the worst pain from the fall but also
my eye sight is so blurry and just this afternoon i went out
side for a minute with my dog an like a color wheel click
click click spun in front of my right eye it done it now 5
times since 3pm' im going for a massage on my neck an head
sholders tomorrow thats private an i no iv had this intense
head pain b4 like my brains been squeezed in ,im to ashamed
an guilty to go for another head scan an waste tax payers
money on my stupid thing. i havnt had a drink since then .
im supose to fly on monday in a small plane to outterstate
im a bit worried this time .i do black out when i drink have
always now iv learnt my lesson is it to late. hope this
syops others from drinking too.thankyou reply soon

Answer
Melissa,

I hope you will not let your fears or embarrassment
stop you from getting help and proper care
for your health problems.

Alcohol takes us prisoner gradually as
we use it. At first it brings some
good feelings and relief from life's
stresses.

In time the drinking turns on us and we start
to have bad times and bad feelings.
Usually by this time we are addicted to it.

It also plays a game with our mind.
This is the feeling that we are ok and
can handle the drinking which of course
is not true. We keep trying different ways
of drinking or not drinking but it always
ends in failure.

It is hard to believe that a drink can
take over our whole life but it does.

The final straw is when we try to quit but
cannot stop for very long.
At this point we may realize that drinking is
a deadly problem.

Sometimes it is hard to give up all our
excuses and get help. This is a painful
thing to admit.

It helps to realize that it is the drinking
that is causing us to think and behave badly.
It affects our thinking and tries to make us
give up. It is an illness of the mind and body.
It takes special care to treat this illness.
This is what happens when we commit ourself
to getting help by attending regular Alcoholics
Anonymous meetings.

This program is designed for our drinking minds
and our stubborness. It helps us to realize that
we cannot beat alcohol alone.
We need this program to help us get out
of our negative alcoholic thinking.

Get the medical help you need and make
a decision to attend AA a few times a week
until you get over the craving for alcohol.
If you feel like giving up remember that is
just the booze talking. It wants to keep you sick.

Don't let your bad thoughts keep you ill,
I had blackouts and fell down stairs too.
I could not quit drinking on my own.
I surrendered my life to getting help
so I could live again and be free.
I felt very worthless and guilty,
I lost my family, I got impaired driving
and jail time. Now I have been sober 25 years,
one day at a time and all it took was
to attend some meetings and read the
big book of AA. The craving for drinks
left me and I was finally able to stop
drinking. I had to give up all my excuses,
especially that I didn't care about myself, that
was the worst excuse to beat.

Please care enough now so someday you can look back
and help someone else with your story.
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