Expert: Kindred Beisinger penname K D Elizabeth Beisinger - 12/11/2004

Question
Hi

I am praying you can answer a few things for me.  I am currently seeing a christian therapist and things are not going to well yet as we just began and lack of income is hindering visits. That sounds silly but we are literally not buying food and using bill money to pay her, we just keep praying about it.
It is now apparent after years of abuse and self hatred that I have been plagued from a very young age by evil spiritual forces....long story!  My health is like that of an 80 yr old woman.  I live with panic attacks, chronic pain, fms, psoriasis as well as the arthritic form of that. I have now come closer to self harm (burning) and there are many other torments I deal with. I have tried to bind these spirits alone with no success when I get with another I hear voices that noone can help me that they are stronger.  Of course that is my own voice I hear but I know you understand.  I am learning to forgive me the one and only person I have never and find it hard to still do.
 
I have had systemic yeast infections for years the doctors gave up on helping me and I am going crazy with itching and scratching day and night. I tried yougurt that was a total and complete mess! I have thought of using Colloidal silver and I did years back with no results.  I read somewhere that CS can kill good flora so I am wondering if this might not be a good remedy to cure this problem anyway?
I was put on thyroid meds and that seemed to help the itching a little but it is back again in full force....yes I am a sugarholic as well and see no light at the end of the tunnel to climb out of that addiction.

I often think of ways I could pass away painlessly because of all the misery phsyically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually. I spend much of days and nights in reverse, nabbing sleep wherever it allows me.  I am so exhausted, so so exhausted.

Any advice you can give me is humbly accepted...:-)  I know I sound like a basket case but underneath this bondage is a loving, funny, gifted, witty, strong, talented woman somewhere..BTW I am 41 years old....thought you might want to know that...

Susan

Answer
Dear Susan,
I do not have all the answers to which you have asked questions, but I do know G~d loves you and have been praying and listening since I read your post.  I want you to do two things and they are very simple things to begin with.  Scripture tells those of us in ministry:  "you have been freely given, freely give."  Do not deprive your family or yourself of food to see a Christian therapist.  I have real issues with that entire concept.  Now the two things.  Ask G~d, to please comfort you and touch you [I use the term "help my unbelief"]  or increase your faith or remove your doubt, whatever term you would use, simply ask that and the next thing I would ask: is that you visit the website listed below, under my name and email me after you read the scriptures, please.  We will continue to communicate if you desire and I believe G~d will heal you and teach you to walk in His health plan.
I will continue to hold you up in prayer.
Shalom in Y'shua,
Kindred
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