AboutMeg Expertise I am recovinging from about nine years with my eating disorder and while I am not a psychologist, I`ve accumulated a good deal of knowlege about eating disorders as well as my own experience over this time. I`ve mainly struggled with anorexia, but have definitely had times where I have engaged in bulimic behaviors as well. I also struggle with over exercising, but am about to be certified as a personal trainer and have learned moderation as well as how to treat my body well so it can perform at it`s best. I promise to give an honest answer to anything asked, and I want to say that while it is a long, scary road---it is possible to get free of this and it is so important to keep on taking little steps and knowing that you are not alone.
Experience Sufferer for nine plus years. Also, my Mom has strugged with this issue- as have others in her side of the family.
Question I was like 99lbs at the beginning of the year and now I'm 88lbs after all that I've done like purging laxatives starvation but like noone knows and I want to keep it that way cause I'm basically over it but then I realized in the day I'll be myself but at night I'll be crazy like about food I really just want atention I don't know what to do
Answer Hi Lindsey,
Thanks for your question and I apologize for taking a day to get back to you. I didn't see this until today. Sorry about that.
And, I'm sorry that you're going through this right now. It sounds to me like there is at least a little part of you that is aware that what is going on isn't healthy, and its good that you are taking the positive step of reaching out here.
The reason that you are probably feeling out of control with food at night is due to the fact that you're not giving your body the fuel it needs during the day. This is a common problem with eating disorders and can lead to eating more and feeling badly about it during the evening. The best way to solve this is by trying to get back into healthier habits of eating more regularly.
I wonder if you really feel like you're "over it" or if you are just not sure you want to get help and admit that this really is a problem. It sounds like you are still engaging in unhealthy behaviors and wanting attention (which is understandable, although there are more positive ways that you can get attention, as I'm sure you understand).
In any case, it sounds like you are struggling and I'm sorry about that. You don't need to go through this alone. There is help out there, both professionally and support online and in support groups. It really does help to talk with people who understand this and can help get you back onto a healthier track.
Here are some links for you that might be helpful :)
