Expert: Jeanne Rust, PhD - 4/7/2011

Question
hi,i used to be anorexic and bulimic for a long time..but that was sooo many years ago..i was like 15 and then again when i was 17 to like 18 or so..but im about to be 22 now..and it still hasnt repaired it self..i have tried everything under the sun..excercise and eating right works for me..but i dont workout for jus ONE week..i gain like 10-15 lbs back..and i still eat the same...i have gotten tot he point where i am scared to eat..now i normally eat just like once a day.. i know that makes your metabolism worse..but eating 3 times a day is so bad for me..i have gone down to 130lbs and back up so many times i cant even say..yes the healty way-exercise n eating right-i even had a trainer..my body is all ruined with strech marks and the sort..i dont know what to do anymore..and every time i go back up..i go back up like 20 lbs more than last time...right now i weigh like 200 lbs..im a size 13..i used to be a size 5...ppl put me down about my weight..please help meeee...pleaseee..i beg youuu...pleasee...my bf doesnt even wana be with me anymore cuz im so fat...or even just kiss me...or have sex...he gets frusterated cuz he says its my fault im so fat and that i dont try hard enough...not too long ago i got so frusterated i bought l-caratine to speed up my metabolism n it worked..but he said i wasnt skinny enough..he said he wanted to  be able tos ee my bones...so instead of taking one tablespoon i took two everyday..i got so sick i ended up int he er...i hate my body..

Answer
Dear Valerie,

I am so sorry that this is happening to you!  People who are heavy are often unpopular and looked down on.  That in itself makes me very angry!!

What needs to happen now is for you to go into treatment for your eating disorder.  When we keep on doing something and it's not working, it's time to try something else!

It sounds to me that some kind of residential treatment would be terrific for you.  Treatment can help you learn about your underlying issues which are the things that cause you to use eating disordered behaviors as a coping mechanism.  You can't begin to get well by just paying attention to food and exercise.  I know that ultimately you'll have to address those things, but that needs to be done with some good psychotherapy.

It's so hard when your bf is being such a jerk!  Please don't do anything else that is dangerous.  I'll help you figure out what to do to get the help you need!


Warmly,
Jeanne Rust, PhD
CEO/Founder
Mirasol, Inc.
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