Expert: Joanne - 12/9/2007

Question
Hi

How are you holly? It's me again, if you remember me? The one with blood in the vomit!! I stopped vomiting for 3 weeks and was so happy!! And just like that yesterday I vomited after i had a full lunch (rice!!) I'm really depressed today and think that i will die today?? And my stomach is killing me?? what should i do nobody understands if open up with some one about my problem they yell me i have to think and control my self but i cant it just happens, what should i do? i hate my self!!! Please help me i was on the right track its like that i pushed my self by my self!!! I was thinking not to eat at all (only small amounts) so i won't vomit any more?? Is that a better idea?

:) Fafy :)  

Answer
Hey Fafy!

Yay for the 3 weeks!  Please don't beat yourself up for one slip up!  Nobody ever said recovery was easy, and you will have these hiccups on the road!  Even though I would say I live a more or less normal life and eat well now, I still have occasional hiccups, its about how you deal with them and move on that is important.

Believe me when I say, trying to eat less if anything at all is not a way of trying to recover from bulimia.  All you are doing is swapping one eating disorder for another, and putting yourself at even more risk of health complications.  You need to try and eat small meals often - 'little and often'!!!!

Please do this for yourself, but also for your children!!!  I want you to be able to be happy as a family - all together, well and with healthy attitudes towards food!

Holly