Expert: Reed (John Rieger) - 2/2/2012

Question
Dear the Expert,

I am very fortunate to find this forum because I have been depressed and tired of OCD. Reading many stories and I feel relieved.

I had some OCDs four years ago, then my OCDs have been a big problem for me. For example, I had to check the locks of my house for several times before going to bed, and I also checked the doors again in the morning to make sure that my house is totally safe. But recently, I have had a new OCD that makes me feel so depressed. That is the fear of hurting or killing other people.

I live in Vietnam and I ride a motorbike everyday to go to work. And recently, I have been obsessed with the feeling that I accidentally roll over a baby. Even though I watch the street carefully, but sometimes at the crossroad, I have to watch the traffic lights and I think I roll over a baby as I am paying attention to others ( cars passing by, people waiting at the crossroad, traffic lights…). And I keep telling my self that if I have rolled over a baby, I would have known it but I can not get out of the obsession.

Could you help me? I want to see a doctor but OCD is something relating to evil people in Vietnam. I have told about my OCD to my wife, my friends and they laugh.

I look forwards to hearing from you soon,

Thanks a lot and all the best for you,

Huy.

Answer
Hi Huy,

I feel that your OCD of checking to see if all doors are locked and your obsession of running over a baby goes back to some long lost and repressed childhood experiences where you were attacked, and possibly another experience where a baby or child was hurt or killed. You may have been able to block these memories for years, but that doesn’t mean they don’t exist and need to be healed. If you can't remember, Meditation is a good tool to use to access these memories.

There is no quick fix but you can heal this issue and empower yourself. I’m going to give you a link to my website http://shenreed.com/ebook2.html and my free eBooks. I suggest that you begin with Book 2 and read Chapter 20 - Healing Level 1 first, and then whatever you are drawn to read. While my fear and anxiety was different, the underlying emotions are the same.. If you need to use meditation to help you access those lost memories, you can find the way to do it in Book 1 http://shenreed.com/ebook1.html  

If you have any questions, you know where you can reach me.

Regards
John