Expert: LeLonni Campbell - 8/13/2009

Question
hi, i'm severely depressed because of a non curable medical problem i have. i'm going through some intense saturn and pluto transits and progressions that are supposed to "hea" but are just knocking me down over and over again which leads to my questions: i will have my progressed moon conjunct chiron (natally in gemini in the 8th house and if it matter natally my moon sign is gemini and in the 8th house) and i was wondering what that means? i have no clue about chiron but i have a feeling it will be bad for me and that perhaps it will break me. my dob- 9/18/1984 @ 10:00am in corpus christi/texas/usa.  

thanks in advance if you can help

Answer
the first thing I noticed about your chart is the large amount of mutable signs in your chart. In astrology the modalities are very important, we use three of them Cardinal, fixed, and mutable.  Cardinal is active and in Ayurvedic medicine Pitta, Fixed is stable and steady and in Ayurvedic medicine Kapha Mutable is movable and changing and in Ayurvedic medicine Pitta. Four have access to an Ayurvedic practitioner I would advise asking them about diet habits that could help you feel better.
On an astrological level I tend to think your Mars Neptune conjunction can be a part of your problem as often this combination indicates a weakness within the auto immune system that leaves you open to many ailment.  Auto Immune disease is literally the body fighting itself so nutrition is important as you react badly to anything toxic.
You have also had the transiting Saturn affecting all your mutable planets and sitting on your Sun, that may have you feeling unable to create the changes you want to create in your life, its also a very exhausting transit so your tired. in October Saturn leaves Virgo and goes into Libra you may mind some relief at that time. I am not sure why you feel Chiron will cause you problem, Chiron is the healing, he brings out your sensitive areas so you can look at them and create permanent cures. your natal Chiron conjunct your north node indicating this is a life where you have a mission to look inward and find out what is holding you back, what it is you need to resolve on a soul leave for physical, emotional and spiritual health.  
As you pointed out your natal Moon in Gemini is in your eight house, this is a placement that forces you to look inward, one of the meanings of the eight house is emotional intimacy, or learning how to trust, you have issues with that and learning to trust and not worry about the pain you can experience from trusting is crucial in your healing process.  "For the branches of a tree to reach heaven the roots must first reach Hell" Or you have to be open to the pain to feel the warmth. You have your first Lunar return happening, your progressed Moon is going into Gemini next month, so over the next two and a half years you have a window to create the life you want.
You have a lot of abilities and can be very emphatic you would be a very good counselor or facilitator so m aybe looking into support groups where people have similar illness as yourself is a way to not only help yourself but will put you on a path to helping others, which is one of the ways to self healing.