AboutOscar G. Expertise From simple curiosity to elaborate scene set up and planning as well as technique, gear, link, advice, opinion, facts and reference among other colleagues.
Social, spiritual, romantic and emotional issues related to BDSM
Bondage being my focus and specialty, but love the sensual aspects of these arts.
Experience 15 years researching, reading, interacting, dating and playing in the BDSM lifestyle actively as a Dom, used to be sub.
BDSM, Bondage, gags, blindfolds, knots, ropes, restrains and roleplaying
Organizations belong to Assorted loose organizations in Southern CA
Publications N/A
Education/Credentials Engineering & Military
Awards and Honors Military and respect from my peers in the BDSM community
I have what I guess some people call as a Daddy/Daughter Kink.
TO me it feels like more than a "kink". I'm struggling lately to keep my thoughts to myself, I've done it for years, Only fantasized about it privately.. In my own head.. In my own time. AWAY from people and anyone that could judge. I've role played Daddy/Daughter nights... and it's as close as I've gotten.
But now, as I experience more sexually.. It comes back hard.
BDSM... discipline, spanking.. all that... seems easier for people to stomach than a Daddy/daughter thing.
I mean OBVIOUSLY I'M SICK!!
I'm not talking about having sex WITH a child. I'm talking about ME as me as the child that I feel I am inside.
I haven't grown a day over 13. Although for obvious reasons I do function (reasonably) as a normal adult. But there are feelings and this HUNGER this unbelievable HUNGER to have whatever it is I've pictured in my mind all these years as a reality.
Or at least a part of my reality.
When I first role played it, years ago maybe at 16.. I got a taste, a taste for the feeling that is so unlike ANYTHING I can explain or have been able to feel in any other type of encounter.
Recently I've done it a few more times... Each time I want it more, I crave it more. It's like an itch that I've scratched. IT WONT GO AWAY.
The amount of times I've felt guilt over these thoughts, wants and needs. I can't stand the GUILT anymore.
WHY DON'T I HAVE NORMAL THOUGHTS LIKE NORMAL GROWN UP PEOPLE.
Is there a way to shut it down? SHUT this part of me down?
Along with other aspects of BSDM... I feel so WRONG for wanting so many of these things, when others around me seem oblivious to the possible existence of a world where something like this is possible or even ok. No one talks about it... Possible coz there aren't lots of people out there like me hungry to be someone's little girl.
I don't want a Master. I want Daddy. MY DADDY. :(
I don't want to be someone's slave.... I want to be Daddy's girl. Daddy's angel, He does as he pleases, coz after all... He takes perfectly good care of me, and that's fine.
Grumble. I'm hesitant even to write it down.
Is it ok?
Am *I* Ok?
Is this a "rare" kink... coz for me it's not a kink... but more of a personality trait.
I love the people in my life. And I don't want to hurt them... Ever.
From a young age... From the age I could really think about it.. I've thought about it... fantasized about it, TRIED to incorporate some aspects of it in my life.
( Lets get this out of the way.. NEVER had a dad like person in my life, unsure if this is where all this comes from)
Do Daddy/daughter relationships exists int he real world? behind closed doors?
Can a person be taught to be a "Daddy" Or is it a natural thing...
Coz for my part.. It's always felt natural.. I've always been this little kid. Inside.
I wish I could fulfill my need, But at the same time, I wouldn't want "Daddy" to fake those feelings.
Sometimes I'm so discusted at what comes out of my mouth. I know it wont make people sad.
Most my friends wouldn't understand. I don't think...
This is perfection in my eyes...
“Shhhhhhhhhhh daddy is here, you’re going to be ok”
My eyes close and my heart rate slows down, a feeling of warmth crawls over my chest.
I don’t say a word, waiting for his voice to guide me though what should do next.
Every breath and every touch, nothing can go wrong.
He strokes my hair and twirls it around his fingers, he pulls me close and stokes my back.
He holds me in place and looks into my eyes. I feel calm, and safe. When he talks he s genuine.
He means what he says, I feel it, I feel that feeling… the one I’m so desperate for. I don’t want it to end. Even if he’s pretending, I’m not.
I don’t want the night to end, I don’t want to fall asleep. I don’t want it to change.
But I wake up… And I’m back to “me” the person I’m meant to be. The person everyone needs me to be.
I don't know what my actual question is.
I suppose I want someone apart from me, someone that KNOWS this sort of stuff to give me some words of guidance.
I'm really confused, I feel guilty and plain SAD that I must hide all this because it's so unacceptable.
I try :( I can't get it to go away.
Help me.
Answer Dear Mimdi:
Your is a very heartfelt letter/question and it affected me somewhat.
I guess your question would be "Do Daddy/daughter relationships exists in the real world? behind closed doors?" And the answer is YES. Specially within BDSM there is a BIG portion of people (from what I have seen) that live or roleplay Daddy/daughter situations. But to avoid the potential incestuous implications or being a bit more politically correct and healthy on the context of sexuality, people look at it as Daddy/Little girl. Semantics. Mehh...
Thing is this kind of roleplay or dynamic is played quite a lot into BDSM. Of course the little girl is submissive/subservient to the Dom Daddy and the girl is a willing follower since trust and communication has been established that your Daddy will take care of you and "Daddy knows best". And that opens the door to a lot of other activities and dynamics. But the main point to make here is to aleviate your fear and anxiety that you are NOT WEIRD. Not too extreme nor strange. It may be not mainstream, but you are not alone. I have seen many couples who act like Daddy and little girl and the girl is over 40 years 9_9 . Often enough she even dresses up as a school girl or even a baby doll with pigtails and Mary Jane shoes. Many variations occurs.
After you realize you are not sick nor too rare, you will want to find out where to find a "Daddy" of your own, I guess. As I mentioned, your local BDSM circles may contain a potential partner who also likes the Daddy personality or dynamics. Heck, there are some Doms who announce themselves as Daddies. But that will come later, once you come to terms with who and what you are and realize you are Fine and a very OK as a person. Define yourself as what type of little girl you may be, and define what type of daddy you want. It is after all a sexually charged thing and Yes, very possibly the lack of a father figure in your past drives you to this craving. But as long as it is not a destructive thing, play with it. It it manages to get out of control and play chaos in your life, perhaps then you worry and seek counseling. But if all you want is a loving partner that could be you sexually charged "Daddy" it is all fun and games. And yes, there are many guys out there willing and good at that role. Just relax, define yourself and figure your needs and wants. That way you will find the right Daddy, not just any other schmoe who may call himself "daddy" but someone that will truly take care of you and lovingly care for of his little girl, and the nice part is that you have chosen him.
Best wishes for you. Be safe and be well.
Oscar G.
