Expert: Master Shadow - 4/5/2009

Question
I have underestimated my Master and tested boundaries I shouldn't have, pushed limits that shouldn't have been pushed, and now I have lost his trust. This was not my intent at all, in fact I didn't think he was full on well you know, but he has shown me that he is taking the roll and taking it without haste. See this is the thing, I am a submissive and have been for a while, but when me and MB met, he was not and changed for me. This made me feel to test him a lot, but now I feel like in doing so I am pushing him away. I want to fix this part of me, I want to make this right with MB, he is my world, my life and I just don't want to hurt him ever again.

Please if you can help
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MB's shelley

Answer
The real questions are have you told your Master any of this yet? And secondly, have you learned where your boundries truly lie, and are you willing to cross them again? Only you can answer these questions.

If it is your thoughts to NOT try your boundries again, I would think that you would inform your Master of this, and explain to Him what happened, and why. That you needed to KNOW you were secure, and that HE would be there to reinforce those boundries when necessary.

Now that you KNOW they are there, you should have no trouble remaining within those boundries. Realize, they are there to PROTECT you, not to obstruct you. As long as you stay within your boundries, you are safe, secure. He KNOWS what you will do in any situation, as your boundries define those actions. He KNOWS He can trust you to act in the proper fashion.

 Explain this to Him. Let Him know, as He is the One you must please, and obey. I can give you advice, but only HE can make decissions concerning His property. Honesty in ALL things, shelly. Open up to Him, your Master, and be free. Release your emotions, openly to Him, as a gift, and let Him know.

I hope this helps, and wish you and your Master the best in all things.



                     
                                        SINcerely in Leather,
                                        Master Shadow.