Expert: arani_CsA - 7/10/2009

Question
My bf and i have recently started the journey of letting, what we believe are our true natures, out

Though He will always ask me about my day and will emidiately notice if something is bothering me, i have to say that many times talking about it makes me feel like i am a burden to Him, like i am burdening Him with my problems. I end up feeling guilty.

Am i the only one feeling like this?

Answer
Hello...

Thank you for coming to me with your question.  I do beg your pardon for my delay in answering it; my Master and I recently moved to a new house and were without internet access for a couple of weeks.  Anyway, I hope I can help you find the answers you are looking for.

First of all, welcome to the strange and wonderful journey of slavery.  As you said, yourself, it is a journey -- one that will continue throughout your life.  When you can find someone to share that journey with, so that the two of you can know true happiness, then you will find your life complete in ways that you had never anticipated.

A good Master will want to know his property intimately, phyisically and mentally as well as emotionally.  I have often said that my own Master knows me better than I know myself.  (That includes being able to predict, from my bodily and emotional signals, when I am going to start my period.)  He can tell, when I walk through the door, whether I have had a good day at work or am totally exhausted.  

But such complete knowledge of a slave by her Master serves several purposes.  He can use this information to more fully secure her surrender to him, for we are property not only in our bodies but also in our minds and even our very thoughts and dreams.  It helps him to read our responses to him and his training, to anticipate how we might respond to any given situation, and also to alter those responses in the way that he desires.  

But there's more to it than that.  One of the duties of a good Master is to nurture and protect his property.  In the same way that a man who owns an expensive sports car will be able to discern, from the way it drives, whether it needs a tune-up, a good Master will be able to determine if his slave is giving him her full attention or is ill or is uncertain of how to proceed.  He can know just how to touch her, or what combination of words to use, to make her squirm with delight or fall to her knees with remorse.

That said, surrendering yourself to this extent is difficult.  Our society tells us that we have the right to privacy, to guard our feelings and thoughts from others who might harm them.  We tend to be suspicious of people who want to know us to such an extent, and suspect that they might use this information to harm us.  But, once you do surrender in this way, you will feel such an intense feeling of ownership and vulnerability -- and, at the same time, freedom -- that you will wonder how you ever existed without it.  

Just think about how many arguments we get into, with friends and strangers, because they fail to read our body language or don't understand how that little quirk they have irritates us.  Or, think of how many times you feel sexually unsatisfied because your partner was only interested in his own pleasure, or didn't care that touching you in just that way drove you crazy with delight.

Have fun, play with it.  See if you don't find your life more complete than ever.  If you have any more questions, feel free to bring them to me.

arani_CsA,
devoted property of Clampius_Arelius