Expert: awhitecloud - 1/7/2012

Question
Omg, I gave u the wrong email the first time so someone out in this world is going to get a a confermation for this question. Here it is again, hopefully u get this on first so u don't have to awnser it again am so sorry sir...Hi sir, I am confused about what am feeling, I am with my master long distance we are not online because we do visit each other and plan on living together in the next year. I wanted to know why I feel the way I do and if I should be feeling this way sir. When my master tells me it's bed time (12:30, and yes it is 4:33 which means I am misbehaving) and I don't want to go to bed I get really upset because I know I have no choice. It also happen when he asked me to cut my hair to shoulder length I cried when we were on skype because I really really did not want to do it but I did because I knew I would disappoint him. And when I do something wrong like swear and he tells me that I am not allowed I always close my eyes and bow my head and sometimes cry alittle even if this all happened in txt. Sir am I normal? I did not feel this way with my prior Dom. I am young sir and I just don't know what is happening to me.
Josee
Sorry for the spelling I am French sir

Answer
Okay your English is just fine....And secondly I am not a Sir I am a female sub, but it is okay I am not offended.

Most people feel the way you do when they are connected to the other person.  For a sub it should not make you happy or do things your om has ask you to do or required you to do for them.  That is a part of submission, the tears are a part of your pride being broken and you giving over to his wants and wishes...sometimes that can be a very hard thing even if it seems like an easy thing.  

Well all are different and there is nothing wrong with you....and so you know if I was told to cut my hair I would cry as well.  Somethings that I have for rules...well if I brake them I get upset for I know I have let him down.  yet there are times that I do not get upset when I brake one.  other times I most go to him and I cry when I most tell him I have done something that he did not even know I had done wrong.

It is all about giving yourself to another.  Do not look at it as something wrong more like something that means your connected into his wants for your life as well his.

Thank you and good luck.  I hope I have helped and I will just delete the fist message you sent so that well someone at the wrong addy will not get some off the wall mail.

Good luck to you and your Sir.

awhitecloud