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So here it is, my loving dominant lives 4 hours away and he comes and sees me every month or so at university, he is 2 Yeats older then me and to my surprise a very caring man that liked things done his way so I made him into a Dom and now he is prefect. But every times am with him I am extremely happy but then when we need to part I hate life all my depression and anxiety comes back. I don't eat and I don't want to live but I hold on because I know he loves me and I know we are perfect for each other (he got me a promise ring, I know to vanilla for you lol) I just want to know how to deal with the times that am depressed because I know I scare him and brake his heart because he really wants me to eat and be happy.

Your dear friend Josee

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sweetie

First off it has been along time since we talked... and I am happy you found some of what you need.  The relationship seems built on a mix of vanilla the life so probably a good foundation for you.  I believe your angst is much to do about the separation anxiety you feel.  I am sorry that you live so far a part but my current sub/slave lives 13,000 km away so even more difficult.  The secret for us is regular and meaningful communications. I believe the dominance does not end at the door but must be ever present.  Also let's face it you always have been a high maintenance type of sub who is needy at a minimum.  Talk to him about this, have him give you routines, tasks and little things to do daily even when a part.  Keep a journal, share it with him, share pictures, do sly naughty things for him and be as present to him as want him to be to you. He will appreciate the effort. Knowing your history I know how intense you jump into this.  As to eating, a very overrated activity if you ask me.  I have not eaten solid food for three years now.  There is a very powerful liquid vitamin/mineral pack available at the pharmacy.  It is given to people with digestion and immune deficiencies. Ask you pharmacist for it.  That and some liquid (water, milk, vanilla frappachino {if I remember correctly}) will do.

You happiness will come for serving and experiencing, the rest is just window dressing.

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I will answer any questions concern the lifestyle and may annoy a few because I do dive into the history and psychology of this lifestyle in many of my answers. I have a partner a Femdom Mistress who shares my experiences and assets, as I hers. Also belonging to a couple groups in Europa and Asia. Traveling frequently between the continents. We tend to share information and discuss many of the topics frequently. I will focus on the core items around, training and relationship management for those that are interested.

Experience

I have been involved in the lifestyle since being introduced to it by my father at the age of 13. He was a master in the 50's to 80's but predated the popularity of Gor, and was Pharaonic in nature. I owned my own slaves since my early 20's. I have usually been part of a poly household. For about 6 years three of us ran a BDSM club in Prague until it was "acquired" by the Russian "businessmen". I do not hold any moral taboos about this lifestyle and at one time or another have experience or seen everything imaginable. It is in this absence of mrals that principles, protocols and personal honour must determine the worth of an individual. It is their clear and unwavering adherence to these ethics that make for stauncher things than those which some observance by mere lip service to common morals. When men/women of honour lead, then they do so without malice, without negativity and without thought of personal gain. It only then that they truly attain Dominon over others. Therefore in mastery comes a devotion to duty, and the existence, needs and desires of others that exceeds the submission mere slaves give to the Dominant. A Dominant one must lead, govern, educate and enrich the lives of subjects beign ruled... for otherwise they are but a sycophant and a tyrant. Hedonism and narcissism plays no part in this, it is an apparition that forms from acts done at much higher levels of meaning that mere morally bound persons can not see.

Organizations
I belong to a number of local clubs, and a loose association (not formal) of about 25 masters and mistresses here in Western Europe and Asia who share experiences, training and some exchange trade assets.

Publications
I have not published on BDSM under my name, but contribute frequently to forums. I am consolidating my writings slowly on DarkCastleSin.org for any that are interested in reading.

Education/Credentials
Not relevant although I do have a DCS and DT but I am not Christian so have no moral dilemmas with this lifestyle.

Awards and Honors
Not applicable here, come on in our lifestyle these do not exist but should. When was the last time we had public awards for Worlds Darkest Sadist, World's Most Gifted Shibaru Artist, Worlds Most Diligent Mentor, World's Most Gifted Enthusiast,

Past/Present Clients
Not relevant; private consults remain so.

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