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I've always been interested in the BDSM scene but I never found my place and I'm terrified to try experimenting. I've researched various sexual activities but I don't usually get turned on unless it's bondage, I'm having a hard time discovering what I am though. I'm a dominate person most of the time but I get more excited if I imagine being submissive in bed. My friends have been very helpful by letting me tie them down and by tying me down in return to see which I like most, I really enjoy being tied down but I have had days when I want to restrain someone else. I don't even know if that qualifies as being a switch or not.

The reason I'm asking for advice instead of experimenting is because I'm still a virgin and I don't want to risk losing that to someone I'm just experimenting with, and I'm not attracted to women so trying anything beyond ropes with my friends is out of the question. It probably sounds silly but it's a very big deal to me. I'd like to know what I am so I'm less confused and can start looking for someone who matches me and maybe start a relationship. Please help me.

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Heather.

I believe you should have a play session with a submissive man and a play session with a Dominant man. In your play session with a submissive man, it almost goes without saying that sex isn't involved. Everything is at your discretion. Construct the session the way you desire, make sure there is a safeword (or words, if you're using green-yellow-red), and have fun. In your Dominant man play session, you should make it clear that your hard limit is sex and that anything even resembling sex would be tantamount to rape, because you do not consent to sexual activity. In both cases, explain that you want to experiment predominantly with bondage and that you are also pretty flexible in finding out what you like. There is no need to proclaim yourself a virgin, otherwise you'll be drawing attention to that highlight of your life needlessly.

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Expertise

I am open and willing to answer any questions involving BDSM that do not specifically concern illegal acts involving children or non-consensual assault against an unwilling party.

Experience

I have had BDSM experience in a professional capacity since 2005. As far as personal, non-professional experience, I have always taken the lead in relationships, friendships, and other situational interactions. I prefer to "wear the pants" so to speak. However, this is not to say I wear the physical pants: I am mostly seen wearing skirts.

Organizations
National Coalition for Sexual Freedom

Publications
Excitedly, this will be my first foray into professional writing about BDSM, however my vanilla writings have appeared in several publications online. I am the former main web editor of a very popular DIY website, writing articles about electronics, repurposing, and sustainability.

Education/Credentials
I have participated in many educational workshops held by Pro-Dommes. I have also hosted a few workshops involving BDSM issues. I have done extensive research on D/s power dynamics and BDSM. As far as education, however, professional sessions and interactions with clients have provided most of my experience.

Past/Present Clients
I have a multitude of both. I specialize in clients with physical handicaps, rare kinks, edge play, LGBT lifestyles, and other underrepresented or marginalized groups.

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