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Hey there! I'm a female submissive. I love this part of me and find it beautiful. When I discovered how deep this "sub thing" went for me, aka, more than just in the bedroom, I was in love and felt like I found this big missing part of my life. Unfortunately during my first (and only, so far) submission bliss I was taken advantage of and sexually assaulted by my domme's master at the time. I don't interact with them anymore, clearly. I have not explored my submission since. It's been two years and I have done alot of self-healing in that time and now I'm at a point where my sexuality is awakening and I'm wanting to be comfortable with submission again.
I am looking into seeing a Pro-Domme to help me take some baby steps back into this. I'm so nervous though. I feel weird seeing a professional when I am a lifestyler but I find alot of comfort in it. Is this okay to do? Any advice? I'm figuring all of this out and would like some guidance.
~Artis

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artis.

It is perfectly okay to see a Pro-Domme during any step in your journey. As in any relationship, I believe communication is key. As a Professional Dominatrix, I see clients from all over the spectrum, some with almost exactly the same sort of circumstance you're in, so it is relatively common. Finding a Domme with a good amount of experience is the challenge. Tell the Domme your story, and She will be able to guide you in a new submissive journey that will more than likely turn out far better.

As for the sexual assault, that is terrible. In BDSM, occasionally rights are violated, and because there is much misinformation floating around, it is essential to be extremely clear about your boundaries, what has happened to you, and what you will not tolerate in the future.

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Expertise

I am open and willing to answer any questions involving BDSM that do not specifically concern illegal acts involving children or non-consensual assault against an unwilling party.

Experience

I have had BDSM experience in a professional capacity since 2005. As far as personal, non-professional experience, I have always taken the lead in relationships, friendships, and other situational interactions. I prefer to "wear the pants" so to speak. However, this is not to say I wear the physical pants: I am mostly seen wearing skirts.

Organizations
National Coalition for Sexual Freedom

Publications
Excitedly, this will be my first foray into professional writing about BDSM, however my vanilla writings have appeared in several publications online. I am the former main web editor of a very popular DIY website, writing articles about electronics, repurposing, and sustainability.

Education/Credentials
I have participated in many educational workshops held by Pro-Dommes. I have also hosted a few workshops involving BDSM issues. I have done extensive research on D/s power dynamics and BDSM. As far as education, however, professional sessions and interactions with clients have provided most of my experience.

Past/Present Clients
I have a multitude of both. I specialize in clients with physical handicaps, rare kinks, edge play, LGBT lifestyles, and other underrepresented or marginalized groups.

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