Expert: awhitecloud - 8/9/2007

Question
I met and fell inlove with my Master online.  We live in two different countries, but he will be coming to my location when his studies are complete.  His school will keep him away from me for at least 2 more years.  We used to be able to talk all the time but lately, He is really busy, and sometimes can only speak via email or not at all and the time zone difference of 7 hours also gets in the way.  Lately, I've started to feel like I was the only one working towards things... My Master has a routine for me daily, with specific tasks that require a great deal of time.  I also send Him emails daily of no less than 1000 words detailing everything He expects.  sometimes He won't answer at all, sometimes its 2 sentences.  sometimes I feel I am the only one working on the relationship.  it makes me feel like he doesn't have the time to be my Master. I've talked to Him about it before, but he has little options... it makes me feel like right now just isn't a good time for Him.. am I wrong?

Answer
First off I think that most subs feel this way from time to time in all D/s relationships, we all have our ups and downs and it does not mean that we do not want the other.  At times as a sub to do all that is expected of you well it can and does seem one sided but you have to be happy and thrive from the fact your doing what is ask of you.  He might be testing you as well to see where you are and how much you can handle and not give up.  You need to suck it up and well just be happy and do your best to serve him, unless you feel that you no longer love him.

I am working on my Masters degree and I can tell you first hand that at times school takes all my time, and I neglect my Sir, friends as well family.  And I thank God that none of them have walked away or raged on me for all the time and effort that I most put into school at time.  My studies come first in this home as that is Sir’s wishes, so the rest well if it does not get my attention at times I just have to not feel bad over it.  Yes at times others have to do things I should even so that I can study.  So I would tell you to stop feeling sorry for your self and to be happy to serve him in what he has asked of you.

If you no longer love him well then that is a whole different ball game all together.

awhitecloud