Expert: Rev. Robert Woods - 10/31/2009

Question
I was raised in a Southern Baptist Church accepted Christ as my Savior when I was 13. I had a hard time growing up I was raised by my Grandparents and the man I knew as my Dad started on me when I was 13 as to how I was worthless useless better off dead by the time I was 18 I had tried to commit suicide 35 time had other personality that I made up to deal with him and spent all my time wanting to die.when I was 32 I still had the same feelings my Father had passed on and I still had the voices in my head telling me that i was worthless and better off dead. An evangelist laid hands on me and prayed and for the first time I knew peace the voices and personalties were gone. I found a new Church Home then and was there every chance I got. Now I am 38 I have been out of Church for sometime now as my home church lost that feeling that Gods there. I have tried other churches but they all seem to me that you need to make so much money wear this kind of clothes to be there that I just can not stay in one long. I now once again find myself lost I know God loves us all but I look at myself and wonder why would he care about me I find myself yet again feeling that I would rather Die than keep suffering though I know better than to try anything the feelings are still there. I still believe in God and still truly believe In Christ but I keep thinking that now since I don't have a home Church that I am lost beyond help and going to end up lost forever I know this isn't really a question but I hope you can have some little bit of Info God will have you pass along to me that will help bring me back from the edge so to speak the last Church I went to just had that home feeling at first they didn't care if I show up in camo to church I didn't need a fancy car or house and so what if I didn't make 100,000 a year. and yes sometimes I wear camo to church I don't have a lot of clothes my wife and i barely make enough to keep food on the table let along buy dress clothes. Am I wrong wanting to find a church that's going to accept me for who I am I have never had trouble worshiping God on my own either but something just seems to be missing without a home Church

Answer
Blessings and thank you for your question.  

My heart grieves over the hurt in your life.  I pray the Lord would bring you the peace that you want.  But remember, he is peace.   It is only in Him that you will find peace.

Now if you accepted Christ as your personal Savior, repented of your sin, and have made Him Lord of your life then you are saved, not lost.  You may be feeling lost right now, but you still belong to Him.

Christ does not care about what you wear to church or how much money you make.  Those are things that man cares about, not God.  Keep looking for a church home that will accept you for who you are.  Look for a church that will love you.  They are out there.  

The Bible tells us that we are part of the body of Christ.  When we are absent from the body, it hurts you and it hurts the church.  It is like taking an organ out of your own body.  On its own, the part cannot live.  You cannot live a Christ-like life without being supported by the body of Christ.  So look until you find one that you fit in.  

I will pray that the Lord guides you, blesses you and brings you peace.