Expert: Eric Christy - 10/24/2007

Question
Hi and thanks for taking the time to read this,

I was baptised in 1989 and for a while i felt Gods spirit and purpose. But since then i have fallen away ( got involved in relationships twice) but have been back in my church for about seven years but even in that time i have struggled internet ponography and paying taxes.I have stopped pornography now and have contacted the tax authorities now.
I have also suffered from bipolar disorder since i was very young which causes me to be very depressed for a while and then switch to elated and euphoric feelings accompanied by periods of wreckless behaviour (financial overspending etc..).



I used to feel Gods forgiveness when i repented but now i feel like my heart has become very hard and it does not respond and Satan has been accusing me for all the sins i have commited sins becoming a christian. He keeps accusing yet i don't feel God hhas forgiven me. Hebrews 6:4-6 really worries me.

i would appreciate any advice or perspective that i can't see.

Thanks in advance .

Toby

Answer
Hi Toby,

Thank you for contacting me on these issues. Let's get right into this.

Feelings of God's presence come and go. The one thing we can be sure of is that they will certainly go if we move away from God, if we stop reading the bible and praying to Him. If God isn't as close as He used to be, guess who moved.

Your heart does become hard, the longer you starve your soul of its necessary food, ie the reading of the bible.

As for Satan's accusations. Tell him he hasn't a leg to stand on. If he accuses YOU of sin, just start pointing out the SINS HE has committed! He can't complain about your sins when he has a kazillion more! The only person you should be listening to when it comes to your sins is the Holy Spirit. Learn to tell the difference between Him, and the UNholy spirit.

Eric