Expert: Bodhicitta - 5/30/2008

Question
Hello there,
my name is gadiel abraham,
i am jewish.
i live in a small apartment in Jerusalem,
its on the third floor, where i have the view over valley.
i live in solitude, writing poems, and words in between.
i seek to learn, being a tibetan monk.
i seek to learn meditation.
i seek to know my self.
i dont know what i seek.
i am not trying to elusive.
things are alusive as it is to me.
i have learned much, i knew less, i know everything i have to know. i know that.
i have wanted to ask how do i become a monk.
i seek for solitude. few words and peace.
if it isnt the right path. maybe you would know.
i know this duty calls for me somewhere.
i am sorry, i dont find words, very useful.
i have some few freinds and family which i love greatly.
i dont want to let down anyone.
i find it hard to find peace, from the corner i am looking from.
maybe you have a few words for me.
i do not know what i know.
i seek to find myself.
sincerly,
gadiel.

Answer
Shalom Gadiel Abraham,

I live in the primordial space before places were named,
It is in the essence of the heart looking over the vast expanse,
There is only peace, resting in this place, and no words can describe it,
There is nothing to learn, and nothing to renounce,
There is no meditation.
Self can not know itself,
There is nothing to seek,
Not allusive, elusive, but  penetrating luminous clarity,
There is nothing to learn,
The absolute monk realizes there is nothing to do,
Solitude does not exist, there are no words, there is only peace,
Do not take contrived paths,
Follow your heart wish,
Ignore all words, realise there is nothing to do,
All beings are our friends, love, and compassion shine without discrimination,
These meaningless words, are advice from the heart, shared to you by a fool who should have remained silent

Bodhicitta