AboutAlex Wilding Expertise I have practiced and studied Tibetan Buddhism in the Kagyu and Nyingma traditions since the early 1970s, and have a good knowledge of theory, history and of the struggles of trying to practice the teachings, including meditation, while leading a normal, modern life.
I am also available to provide background information for journalists.
Experience I have been a practitioner since the early 1970s; have run a small Buddhist centre in the English Midlands and was vice-president of Kagyu Benchen Ling e.V. in Germany, for whom I managed three large Buddhist summer-camps. More importantly, I maintain a habit of personal practice.
I am the "owner" of the Kagyu list at Yahoo.
Education/Credentials My first degree was an M.A. from Oxford. I later obtained a Master of Philosophy degree for a research thesis in "Initiation in Tibetan Buddhism" from Leicester University. I also have engineering and educational qualifications.
Question hi, I often feel lazy now that I started meditating..it is a feeling of having no motivation.. Like what's the point of actually doing anything and being alive. I focus on these feelings and the sadness that accompanies it and it doesn't end up bothering me.. In fact I feel TOO comfortable where I am... Just sitting and being mindful that I seem to not feel like doing anything else except for being mindful? I know I have to work but I'm just lazy? Do u have any experience with this?
Answer Hi Christine,
Do I? A bit. My main problem, though, is falling asleep when I meditate!
Accepting the inherent sadness in things is really quite Buddhist, I think, so I wouldn't suggest you fight that too much. In the kinds of Buddhism I try to follow, we are recommended for this reason to remember again and again one thing: we will die. Sooner, later, soft or with pain - but it *will* come. This is said to help us focus on the question of whether we are ready for that - the implication, of course, is that hardly any of us are.
There is no need either to get morbid or to panic about it. Try just gently recalling the prospect of your death, and see if that brings a clearer focus to your comfortable feelings.
I hope that helps a bit!
All the best
Alex W
