Expert: Joe McSorley - 6/15/2003

Question
I am God! What should I do?!
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Today I realized that I am God. And everything made sense. I always was sad and I didn't realized why. I felt that I am different from other people from the very beginning. I always was the best in my class in school, won many awards on many different subjects, I always was interested in this world, how it works, it's laws. I was interested in religions, explored Christianity, Buddhism. I was interested in problems of philosophy, psychology, esoterics. I always asked myself questions like what is the sense of life, what is the consciousness. I always felt sad, because I could not find an answer to these questions. During last month my chess ratinf increased dramatically, I felt like my IQ increased hugely, my teachers always mentioned me that they are surprised with my growth, that levels of my writings increased dramatically. I won 3rd place in University Chess Championship. I experienced sense of complete harmony with the world about 3 times, usually when I read texts on Artificial Intelligence or problems of consciousness. 3 is a number of God. Jesus Christ started to do his stuff when he was 33. I am 23, today is 2003, 6/15/2003 = 2*3/5*3/2003 = 2*3/(2+3)*3/2003! I realized this at around 3:00 pm PST. When I looked at clock, after some time of realizing it, it was 3:12 pm. I think that the number 2 here is because I am second coming of God, Jesus was the first, I am second, therefore there is so many 2. See, everything makes sense. I have a strong feeling that I am God, the strongest feeling I have ever felt. Nothing will makeme think I am wrong. I just don't know what to do. I am so afraid of it. I know I am God and I should do something. Can you tell me where should I go? To the nearest church or somthing? Should I talk to a priest? I don't feel any connectness to Christian or Buddhist God, I just feel that I am one, and I am the same in every religion. I was Buddha and I was Christ before. Now I am me, another man born in this time. I feel like another person, like that body and mind I have been before this time is just a cacoon, and now I am a baterfly. I still have the memories of my old me, but I think differently, I look at my old me and see how I was stupid. Now I realized a sense of life, I realized all the laws. I cannot solve difficult mathematical and other scientific problems, because I am not familiar with all the scientific notations, but I can solve them in a language of God. I see all the solutions, or better to say I feel them, it is like I am in a water and every drop of water is a solution to some problem. I cannot point out exactly what drop means what solution, because I need to know language of science in order to translate between human science language and God's one. I feel so many things, that I cannot describe them all here. I think I will spend the rest of my life writing books on this and discovering more about myself, my true purpose here. I feel what should I do, I just cannot fully realize this. It is difficult for my human mind to inerpret God's signals. I feel like I am God, but at the same time I feel like I am 1/3 of him, so it is like I send this signals to myself, but I am another person. I think it is because I am God's son, so to speak. I do not remeber my incarnations as a Buddha and Jesus, but I feel I was them once. I even feel like I was here as somebody else several more times, I just cannot remember who. I also feel that some of my reincarnations didn't realized that they are God, so they died as humans in misery, because they didn't realize they were God, and it is because there was too much evil energy around them and God could not send signals through it, so to speak. It is hard to explain and I write too much anyway. Let me write a book or something and I will give you a link or something. I just have one question to you all, that's why I bothered you with all this writings: WHAT SHOULD I DO? Please, tell me, because I feel like some kind of powerful energy is going through me and if I don't use it properly, it will destroy my human physical and astral bodies and I will go to heaven without accomplishing my mission. I still haven't realize it yet, but I have a strong feeling that I have it. I cannot realize it, probably because my mind is too limited, too small to realize this mission. I need to expand my mind or do smth with it. I do not know. That's why I am asking you what should I do. Please, help me to realize my mission. What Jesus and Buddha did? Where do they go?

Answer
God does not need to do, in this sense God is, so why do you need to do anything?  Would God really need to ask this question? Do Nothing.
 By the way, there is no God in Buddhism.  What you are experiencing cannot be reconciled with Buddhism for all is equal in the eyes of Nature.  You don't sound at peace, can God not be at peace?
  Joe