Expert: Marco - 2/10/2010

Question
Hello, I am new in really studying the bible. But I always beleived in God. I have heard people say, to learn what God wants you to do. I pray about it, I have heard people say i may have the spiritual gift of discernment. I dont even know what that is exactly, I also dont know how it would help. I think it means being able to tell the differents in a good presence or a bad? I dont know but I want to know what my gifts are so i can be of help to others, I have a broken heart for old men and women who have to be alone, and i have a heart for young troubled people ages 18- 30. Because I feel they have been lead wrong or something is really going on with them. I am 40 and I feel this generation is in need of help. I feel it in my heart they are under something i cant even say. I just dont know, All i know is I am concerned with the drugs around our town, I am concern with the parents actually allowing it and giving it to the children as young as 16. I have had my sons have friends, two girls hang themselves two boys shot someone for his guns, anouther boy off to college shot his self and my younger son is now in a christian rehab. I never realized what was going on I was the kind of mother who met the other parents if i let my son stay with them i called to check up on him. Now i find those parents gave him parties. I dont know. I also know there is no where for them to get help. I will explain that later I guess. I called different christian rehabs, I hav no insurance or alot of money so they would lead me back to a center where we live as out patient, and they are a joke. It is called alfa center and every time the kids gos they charge, just for talking to them. Every session. I found one by the grace of God that is free and it is 6 months long. And I want that for others to and I am so sad that others are strugling, mothers crying for there children. People say kick them out, Well I did but it hurt me more then him i beleive. And if i see homeless on the street i really want to cry. Ive been told im to nice or i where my heart on my  sleeve. Is that a gift or is it just being foolish to cry over someones pain.  I dont feel like drugs and alcohol are the base of there torment I sometimes think they become addicted to these things because it allows somethin evil in there hearts and wont let go. Is this some truth to it or am I going crazy? I saw my sons face the night he broke our door at 3:30 in the morning and he wasnt  just drunk he was on somehting else. No matter what he says, I Know he was looking at me but it wasnt at me it was thru me, gritting his teeth, he was not my son, slowly over the last year and a half I feel my son is not him, Could this be a demonic presents. I have felt a heavy scary feeling in my living room by his room for a while. And now he is gone to rehab I dont feel it any more, I felt it before i even started to pray even more so i know it isnt just in my head. Is there realy such things or am i realy a nut? Also what is the difference between Catholic and Christian, I consider myself christian or non denominational I guess before I started reading bible on my own I was taught our fam was Babtist, But after reading i think I am just a person who is Gods daughter and I am developing a relationship with him. And I cant put a lable on it. So is that bad or what? Tell me if I am wrong, in my thinking. I am not all that smart I know but that is why im asking your opinion. If I were to ask a church here people seem to not want to answer anything about spirits, or really tough questions. I hope you can write soon. I guess Im confused.

Answer
Dear Renee,

I am sorry but there are many things you write I do not understand.
You should ask only one or two simple questions, and I will try to answer them. Then you can ask another question and so on.
I am not able to answer such a long message.

Your brother in Christ,

Marco