Expert: Fr. Michael - 10/19/2005

Question
I have a continual fear. I am Obsessive-Compulsive and I would make vows like "I vow to the Holy Spirit I'll go to hell if I don't go see Grandma today". I know that sounds wierd but it originated from my difficulty making decisions. I don't make these vows anymore but I worry because I broke so many of them I'll go to hell no matter what. I used to get peaceful warm feelings when recieving the eucharist that I knew were Christ and I don't anymore so I fear I've sinned against the Holy Spirit and been disowned.  

Answer
Some questions are of a highly personal or individual nature that it would not be possible to discuss by E-mail.  These are questions on which you would most appropriately be given advice and counsel by your own confessor, who can come to know you and knowledgeably guide your spiritual life.

If you do not have a regular confessor, you should consult the Traditional Directory (www.traditio.com) to find one as conveniently local to you as is available.  Sometimes it may take some effort, but in that effort you will enhance the grace of Faith and will develop a relationship with a confessor who can personally come to know your spiritual state and prudently guide you.