Expert: Kit Goins - 1/22/2009

Question
I was thinking today and it bothered me about my salvation because I am unsure about it.
I said the Sinner's Prayer.
I believe and confessed that Jesus is the Son of the only Living GOD and died for my sins.
I asked Jesus to forgive me.
I do believe that GOD and Jesus exist.
I did this three times.
I confessed all of it with my mouth.
But I did it because I didn't want to go to hell.
I was also baptized when I was younger.
I never really tried to develop a close relationship with Him though nor have I really wanted to but yet I know that He is trying to have one with me.
I used to try and read my Bible and go to church and I do pray to GOD every night.I wish that I had a heart to seek Him more but how do I get that kind of heart?
Am I not saved now?
Oh and in your opinion,do you think that Barack Obama is the antichrist or something?
But every time I find myself wanting to draw closer to GOD.I sometimes feel like I do it still because I don't want to go to hell.As I said,I did what it ays in the BIBLE and when I confessed that I believe that Jesus died for my sins and rose again and still lives,I meant it very much because I do know that is what happened.But I still don't know if I want a further relationship with GOD.I asked Him to give me a heart to want to seek Him more.Does this mean that I am not saved?

Well when I confessed my beliefs,I meant it but I also did not want to go to hell.I truly do know and believe that Jesus died for my sins and that He rose again.I'm 13 by the way.I'm not confessing it just to be doing it.I got saved in 2002,2008,and 2009 but now I still feel like it is still not enough.If I am not saved then what's the point of living?I am desperately trying to do everything to get saved.And I am still not saved?I've did what it says in the BIBLE to be saved!I do believe what I am saying when I say it.I just feel like I don't get saved in order to seek GOD but all I know is that I do believe that Jesus died for my sins and that GOD raised Him back up from the dead.And I know that Jesus is still alive too!But the truth is that I confessed what I said in the sinner's prayer because I truly do believe that Jesus died for my sins and rose again and that He still lives and becaus eI didn't want to go to hell.So what is still wrong?

Someone just told me that if I had to ask if I am Saved then obviously I am not. I go to an Apostolic church but I am really Pentocostal.MY beliefs are that if you accept Jesus Christ as your personal Saviour and ask Him for forgiveness from your sins then you are saved.But of course different denominations have different beliefs on what actually makes you saved so if I went to a non denominational church it might make me confused. So if you don't mind,I will ask my question again.- Well when I was about 8,I asked for God's forgiveness but at the time,I did it because I didn't want to go to hell.I didn't really love GOD because I didn't really know Him that well.So then like 2 years later,I got the Holy Ghost but then I felt that my church was trying to really push me into it so I just all of a sudden shut down.About a year ago or a couple of months ago,I just decided that I didn't want to go to church anymore.I go once in a while but not every Sunday and I feel that if I am just going to make people happy and just to be there then that's a vain reason to go.If you're not there for GOD then there's no point in goingI tried reading my Bible and I started from the first chapter and tried to read the whole book in order.Well that got boring and I didn't understand anything so I stopped that too.So now,the only thing that I will do is pray and majority of the time,it's to ask for things.I'm not really sure if I love GOD because I haven't really got to know Him nor hae I really tried anymore.I know I have really backslided in that area.Does this mean that I am not saved?Or at least anymore now?So now I am not saved?!?!?!?!?!?!?!Now I might as well kill myself.The thing is that I don't know if my heart was into when I was eight,at the time,I Was a little willing to get to know GOD better but now I am hearing this?What are you saying now.Now I am not saved?Yes I do believe that He is the son of GOD and that He died for our sins so that we can be forgiven.I asked Him for forgiveness.At the time,I didn't want to go to hell but at the time,I was young and I wanted to I guess know Him better.But after that,I just drifted off.But now I don't even know if I am saved.Does it sound like I am saved?If I didn't ove GOD when I got saved then does this mean that I am not saved?Do I need to get saved again? I know this is terribly off subject.But now I am in even worse trouble if I am not saved.I feel even worse.They told me that I have to accept Jesus as my master which is what I thought accepting Him as my Saviour meant.It make sme want to commit suicide even more than before.Maybe my life is just going down the drain.I mean,I have everything academically and school-wise going for me.But everything else is just terrible. I live with my mom and she is on welfare and medical cards but yet my dad is rich.I don't live with my dad.But I live with my mom in an apartment building that my dad owns,he owns a lot. I guess you could say that my mom is middle class because we aren't poor.My dad always gives us the money to pay our bills and buy food and all of that stuff. So does this mean that I am poor? There are days when my mom doesn't have money.But we don't starve or don't have clothes but there are some days that there is nothing to eat (which is rare)because I eat up everything and she doesn't have time to go to the store or my dad hasn't given her the money. I am stuggling with my sexuality.I'm not pretty.I have bad thoughts and can not seem to get my mind together.And now I might not be saved?Please respond!



I don't feel good.I'm not alright.This makes me want to do something drastic.Like suicide!I asked Him into my heart but at the time,it was because I didn't want to go to hell or anything.Am I not saved then?Do I need to get saved again or something?



Also I am wondering if I have blaspemed.Sometimes when I say the word gay or something similar,I suddenly look at a picture of Jesus even though I wasn't talking about Him.Sometimes when I say the word gay or something similar,I suddenly look at a picture of Jesus even though I wasn't particulary talking about Him.And sometimes I think things that are blasphemous.I don't mean to think that way.And if I think,I don't say it.But after I do all of this,I ask for forgiveness.But it says that real Christians don't commit blasphemy so that means that I am not a true Christian and that I was never saved.But that means that I have to get saved all over again and I am getting sick of doing it over and over and over!I don't want to blasphemy either because I know what happens to people that do.So what do I do?Am I not saved or a Christian?And sometimes I think about blaspemy.I don't think that I really mean it if I have ever said or else I wouldn't want His forgiveness.I wouldn't even care for that matter.But I do care.I certainly don't curse GOD outloud habitatly.I do have bad thoughts but I ask for forgiveness right after them because I know that I don't mean to even think them,they just pop in my head.If I have ever said anything against GOD or Jesus,I haven't ever meant it,that's for sure.But it just bothers me.So now I might not even be a Christian?"
I also wonder if I have sold my soul.I sometimes think about selling it.And sometimes I say "If I don't do this then my soul is....."

I don't want to say the rest.I don't know if I have bet on my soul but yet I think that I have but I ask for forgiveness after it.I ask God to forgive me for it.But I don't want to sell my soul.Does this mean that I have?

Answer
Greetings, in the name of Jesus, the Christ,

It sounds to me that basically, you have two questions that you need answered.  

Ok, first of all, to be saved, it requires you to BELIEVE (have faith)
in the one and only true and living God. You already agreed that you believe He sent His Son to save us FROM sin, that He died and arose again in three days. You did all that was required in Romans 10: 9,10.

Do yourself a favor, and re-read and study Romans 10: 9,10, very carefully. See where it says (KJV) "That if thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus,"  look at what it is really asking you here;

What is a Lord?  A Lord is a master, king etc  and what is required of a kings subjects (us)? Do we not have to "OBEY" our King, in what he commands us to do?  Of course, we do ! This is the half that most preachers and teachers fail to to reveal and/or teach us.  In essence,we are to OBEY our Lord in what He commands us to do, in His word. You understand the first part, but not the second. And this may be what bothers you, when you said.."I still feel like it is still not enough", and you are correct. You didn't get the other half of that passage...that was what you were missing.

In verse 10, "For with the heart man believeth unto righteousness; and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation."  

See where it says..."believeth unto righteousness"...this is the part you were missing as well...well if you confess, with your mouth that Jesus is Lord, as a result, you will accept Him as such and obey Him...to the point that you will become righteous,pure and holy as Jesus is. Do you undesratand now?

As for obama being the anti-christ...most christians who are knowledgable of God's word...also think this could be true.
It is possible...but we'll have to wait and see all he does in the coming months.  I've already seen that the first day in office, he created what is known as "executive orders" in approval of gay marriages etc.  And thats not good.

To blaspheme, is simply to deny there is a Holy Spirit, God's Holy Spirit.  So unless you have done this, I wouldn't worry.

Lastly,  all these negative thoughts in your mind lately..is being placed their by satan and his demons.  Satans greatest and most used tool and/or weapon is "FEAR" he will do and say anything that makes you loose faith in God thru Jesus.   Basically, the battlefield is the MIND, but what satan doesn't realize yet, is he already lost the war for our souls. The WAR has been won,by Jesus dying on the cross, for all of our sins, but satan is still fighting battles, so he will still try to kill steal and destroy anything of God's.

Do not allow him to win, fight back...tell him and his demons that Jesus is your Lord and savior now...and you obey only Him (Jesus)..
Make sure anything you say and do to fight satan must be said and commanded "in Jesus name", why?  Because satan and his demons must obey Jesus, satan can only do what God and you allow. Use the truth of God's word.

I hope this helps
InHis Service, and love
Bro.  Kit