Question Hello dear friend,
My question to you is about my pursuit of happiness and being something in life. My relationship with my mother has grown weaker in the past 6- 7 years. My family is always in conflict, that leads to verbal abuse. this has lead to my depression and all sorts of emotions such as no one loves and feeling deprived of happiness. I don't have many friends, I have been unsocial most of my life and dependent on my mother for building relationships and in fact dependent on her for everything. I have changed a lot. I guess I am learning. I find it much more easy to speak to people. Even up to the point where I myself go and talk to them. But I have a selected number of friends. In fact just one close friend. This is probably bcoz we love music and want to do something significant with music. I am learning. I am at the very beginning of this change. I have started to play piano and my mother tells me I have gotta good voice. But regarding my change, I feel like I have been trying to transcend my family's beliefs. This has led to a lot of conflict with my mother. She criticizes me a lot bcoz of this. This probably why I feel like my family doesn't love me any more and find me more of a burden. That is when I turn to other faces role models and even ordinary people. Strangers, basically. And I do find a sense of support as I look at their life perceive the way they feel, their life and their culture. I have even fallen love. I guess I am crazy. But it's just another heartbreak. What am I looking for really?
Answer Hello Rajdeep - I suspect you seek the same thing we all do:  clarity on your personal identity; (2] steady self-acceptance and self-love;  growing clarity on your life purpose;  healthy companionship, love, and intimacy;  spiritual serenity, and  a stable sense of personal and environmental security. As you mature and establish your independence, you seem to be in the process of discovering different life-values and beliefs than your mother. The two of you may not know how to manage "values conflicts"
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