Dealing with Depression/I might be suffering from depression
You can call me Dee. I'm 23 years old and I think I might be suffering from depression. I have been feeling down most of the time for the past several years. A year ago (June 29, 2015 to be exact), I took a test on PsychologyToday and the result said I responded in a way that indicated severe depression symptoms. Yesterday I got a copy of the BDI test online (http://www.hr.ucdavis.edu/asap/pdf_files/Beck_Depression_Inventory.pdf
). I'm not sure if it's the legitimate BDI, but I took it anyway and I scored 51.
Several days ago we had a quiz in class and only scored 1 out of 25. I felt extremely devastated because I studied hard for that class. I felt so devastated that I had to skip my next class and go somewhere private to cry. I cried for at least an hour. Then I realized it was the first day of my period, and a month ago during my first day of menstruation I also cried nonstop. I also remember in some of the previous months I cried so hard or felt extremely sad and realized it was the first day of my period. I googled and read about Premenstrual Dysphoric Disorder, but my symptoms are usually the worst during the first day. Also, my period ended 3 days ago and I still feel really down.
There are very few moments that I think I can do it and just "get over it", but most of the time I don't think I can. During those moments, if I had with me a pill that could kill me in an instant I would take it without second thoughts.
I want to seek help but I can't really afford to go to go to a psychologist, and I don't want my parents to know because I don't want to add more burden to them. Also, I'm still not sure if I really have depression. Maybe I'm just overreacting or acting out. I would probably ask help from my Psychology professors (I'm in my first year studying AB Psychology) after I'm 110% sure I have depression.
If there's any advice you could give, I'd appreciate it so much. Or maybe are there legitimate depression tests you know (that are free) and that I can take to be sure?
Thank you for taking the time to read this.
If you feel depressed that is is sufficient for me that you are depressed. As a nutritional psychotherapist, I believe that most cases of emotional disorders are due to nutritional deficiencies. These must be eliminated before we start looking at psychological aspects of the disorder.
I suggested to have a look at:
Mood Disorders, Nutritional Approach
Pick some of the articles that might be of interesting to you.
Please test yourself for the Nutrition Behaviour In Inventory test as follows: Testing for Hypoglycemia by Questionnaires
Nutrition-Behavior Inventory (NBI)
The first step in treatment is the adoption of the hypoglycemic diet (http://www.hypoglycemia.asn.au/2011/the-hypoglycemic-diet/
Please discuss with your doctor or nutritional therapist
Jurriaan Plesman BA (Psych) Post Grad Dip Clin Nutrition
Editor of the Hypoglycemic Association of Australia
List of my articles: https://docs.google.com/document/pub?id=1M3x0ciu21Q8-KJO3tcIuxE-Mn97OIxCKzuhHDY8umrU#id.m9k24s-yjf9sc
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