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Expert: Sandi Date: 5/9/2008 Subject: Please Help Me
Question Hey Sandi.
I'm a seventeen year old male. I am in love with a real close friend of mine.
I think and hope he feels the same way. So much stuff has been happening and coz im not out I can't talk to anyone about it.
We met in an orphanege (did i spell it right?)
and lived along with other kids in there for a while.
So we became pretty close friends in there. Then he left the home and that's when it started. I really missed him when he was gone and that's when I fell in love with him. So I left that home eventually and got back in touch with him and we started hanging out every weekend. It's hard to explain but I feel it in my being. I know he's meant to be for me and I know I'm meant to be for him but he's not out and nether am I. His parents are bad homophobes and my parents and family are worser.
I miss him and it get's so badd ive contemplated on killing myself a few times but havent had the balls to do it. I drink heaps now and I'm doing drugs hardout.
No matter how hard I try I can't cry and everythings pretty much botteled.
Me and Him have never done anything sexual, kissed, hugged. I gave him a ring and he wears it all the time!? How much more evidence do you need. What makes it worse is his girlfriend doesn't like me because whenever I'm there he runs away from her so I wont see them doing anything.
He likes rapping and he always stares at me whenever he's freestyling. He always does art for me in his books. He even said that he wants to get a house somewhere and we can both live there.
Then after that he left saying he'd be back that night and I didint see him for about a month so I got really fu**ed off when him and our other mate turned up both pissed of their faces. Something hapenned (not to him the mate) and then they left. I sat in the bath and tried to cry but I couldn't. I don't think he'll be coming back. I keep feeling like it's all my fault why he ditches me all the time after dropping clues that he wants to be like he wants me to come out to him. I dont know if he's waiting for me to tell him, or If I'm waiting for him to tell me. And now that he's gone I dont know what to do. Ive been sittin inside with this really bad gut wrenching feeling. I'm missing him, loving him, hating him, thinking about him, nervouse, don't want to eat or drink or sleep I'm constantly running scenarios through my head of what he could be doing with girls or guys out there and it makes me even more sad. I am so depressed my family dont understand what I'm going through and they'r usually yelling at me all the time. They always put down gays and lesbians as a family and i have to sit there and act like it's nothing when really it's adding more sh*t to whats already going on.
If you have anything to say i'd listen.
thanks anyway
Answer look, thinking about killing yourself, drinking a lot, and doing drugs is not the way to "get over" him. you need to get a hold of yourself and realize that your life does not revolve around this guy. you need to find other things to get your mind off of him. go out with friends, find a hobby, stuff like that. what do you have to loose if you let him know you like him? i think you should let him know your gay and that you have feelings for him. i wouldnt let him know you are in love with him or anything like that. take it slow. good luck and please let me know if you want to talk more.
