About Jonathan Expertise I will field questions on human sexuality to include heterosexuality, homosexuality, bisexuality, lesbianism, sex therapy, fetishes, abberations, perversions, adultery and fantasies.
Question (Its a bit long, as there is much to explain)
She was in her Senior year at college when we met. I am 35 she is 22, I am a science-nerd, and she....she is a Glamour Goddess. I have never even received the time of day from a female half as pretty or smart. She is 5'3 of pure white cream poured into a crystal vase, with Big blue eys, long-long curly blonde hair, and a giggle which would topple Kings from their thrones.
It was still the school year when we got engaged, but, even after the engagement I know she continued to date. She was in that clique(that is at most big colleges) the clique of gorgeous white glamour-girls that runs with the Black athletes.
I mean I already loved and worshipped her, and college is a time of playfulness and adventure, so I never acted possessive or hurt...though it did hurt, but I reminded myself that the Goddess has the right, and I altered my mind set to instead just enjoy the roller-coaster of love. And I became fine with it.
She would not allow me sex(even foreplay) until after marriage. But I knew she was sleeping with her Black boyfriends. She did not throw it in my face but she, her friends, and lovers made no exceptional effort to conceal it either.
For me the honeymoon and next two months had been pure sensual heaven. But her sensual-enthusiasm rarely matched mine. It was apparent that sex, was a favor to me, and not a deep instinctive passion for her. I do everything to pamper her, she does not work, I pay her student loans, I bought her a full-membership at the spa and salon so she may glamorize, and receive foot and finger and massage services to her heart's content. Her hands and feet are the embodiment of tininess and daintiness in this Wife-Worshipper's eyes. She has not a callous anywhere on her body. She is witty, sometimes, deeply intellectual, and sometimes goofy. The Wife Goddess is my religion.
During a very open pillow talk 2 months ago she confided that the best sex she ever had was with Black men. * I swallowed my shock *. Because I was dumb enough to ask, she also answered that yes...I am very small, and thin, and that in general (though she often finds us very handsome) she has almost no instictive-sexual desire for white males.
On an impulse of desperation to bring some fun to the Goddess's Marital bed. I purchased a very large lifelike Black dildo and strap-on harness. But I was afraid to try or suggest it. I didn't want the Blue-eyed Snow-Goddess to think even less of me sexually than she already does.
Well, there is a guy, Garren, at the gymn--probably the only Black guy in our white-bread town. He is about 6'6(real tall), and very Black, not mulatto, Not Tiger Woods, but Congo Black. I am going to guess he is about 18-19 he is a bouncer by night, and a gymn-rat by day. He is very successful with meeting white women, and the girls at the gymn all seem to be woozy over him. In the locker-room he shames the little whitebread hubbies. Our best erections would not even match his flaccid state, ....not even close. And I must humbly admit the blackness of him(even down there) seems a more masculine hue than our flabby pink bodies and tiny pink penises.
*Cloaked in the guise of good natured lockerroom joking* He teases us about our pinkness, and smallness, and high nasal voices. I can't say I like him much...but..........
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I finally got the courage to use the strap-on Black Man and my Goddess?....well, after some intial shock, laughing and teasing, became quite sultry, and I told her that I am Garren, come to *Take* her while her wimpy pink-hubby was at work slaving away for her.
She was SO different. I felt encouraged to behave very rude and dominant, and she transformed into a submissive-highheeled-porn starlet! It was Heaven! The Goddess cried out! The Goddess performed oral(so sexily) on the surrogate lover(something she refuses to do on me)!
I won't shock you with dirty details. But since that day our sexlife has been the sex of a Snow-White pornstar and a Black warrior. She thrashes her hair, she talks dirty, with racial dirty talk, and she belittles her old, wimpy hubby, while submitting to me....as I Role Play a pitch-Black giant. Usually Garren (though Shaquille O'Neal has invaded the house on occaision, since I like sports and she likes TALL Black.
My littleness crushed beneath the Heavy weight of the Huge surrogate enjoys it too, though I am seldom permitted the Favor of the Goddess to actually have contact with her. When I try to make normal love....she will inevitably use the *pleading girly-voice* and whisper in my ear...."I want to cheat on you, send in my Black Master". I obediently even excitedly--strap-up and act the Role of the dominant Black, and she slides naturally into the Role of dainty white submissive porno Goddess.
Garren hits on her whenever he sees her. He is also not shy (the brazen youth!) about expressing his fondness for her milk-white soft flesh. Right to my face! Instead of slapping him she giggles, and wriggles, and blushes and fusses with her long blonde hair. She giggles so beautifully when he picks on me(Yes, picks on me right in front off my 22yr old Glamour-Bride!). She laughed when I told her how he mocks our physiques and tiny pink weenies in the locker room. Her laughter is divine, I am happy that I can be a part of her mirth, even as the butt of the joke.
In our Role Play we improvise the whole thing, not just sex. She dresses up, we dance, make out, seduce, talk....its very exciting...should it be?..even though her thrill is in an intense fantasy of extra-marital lovers? Giant Black lovers?!?
I am so happy my Goddess has a sex life....something even young married women are entitled too. But, (ofcourse their has to be a BUT)
But, will I lose her to the real Garren? She assures me that she loves no other as much as me with her heart, mind and soul. Her body and instincts however...well, she admits she is a Blacked-white girl. Not just Black guys per se.....but really really tall, very pure-blooded dark Black, and Naturally Dominant.
Though I haven't dared voice it. I feel an inkling that soon the Real Garren(or someone similar) will be taking and seeding my Soft-Ivory Bride on our wedding bed. Perhaps someone already is?
If she had a Black child? What would say....ofcourse I would adore the child as I adore her....but to family and friends? That I am sterile? Would that be a decent excuse?
Signed: Brain and Loins in Turmoil
p.s. Surfing the net, I have seen that it is not entirely uncommon for some white women (even married white women) to have a Black sexual addiction.
Answer Brian, Im not sure of what your question is. You said so many things. Love between a white woman and a black man is or may not be possible. What you are describing is pure lust not love. She sounds like a person consumned with lust. Many a young white girl away from family and friends will seek out a relationship with a person of another race. It is also true that when a married woman has an affair she often does so with someone she feels superior to. Many a white person feels superior to black persons. White women are no exception. You have 13 years on this girl. She is no where near your maturity level. And wont be for at least another 13 years. If you love someone you do not want to share that person with anyone else. It may be she looks upon you as a father not as a lover or husband. The role of a protector not of a provider. If she commits adultery with anyone then you have grounds biblically, legally, and emotionally for divorce. If she commits adultery and you do not you are free to remarry. You may want to run this whole relationship by a pastor.
