AboutHayat Anne Collins Osman Expertise I can answer questions about Islamic belief and practice, accepting Islam, fiqh and fatwa, women`s issues, and marriage and family matters. I will not address questions regarding political issues.
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Question Please, please help me. I am a new muslim,(6 months) converting on my own from Christianity. Initially, partly to be true to the muslim man I love with all my heart and not to compromise him and largely for the love I have for Allah and for him calling me back to him, for the signs I felt and saw and for the moment I realised the true path when alone reading "“ and if he comes walking towards me I will come running to him”. I immediately bathed, dressed and drove to the mosque and took my shahada. I cant explain the overwhelming calling I felt. The muslim man in question is now leaving my life. Because he is torn. I know if free from responsibility he longs for marriage with me. He craves and needs it. He feels it was God found he met me for I make him want to be a better Muslim and bring much missing happiness to his life. After gaining the support of his family in our marriage he is now torn between two true paths and is backing out and leaving my life forever. Allah knows what is in our hearts and the purity of love I have for this man. It is the hardest loss to bear, alone in Islam for me, losing what I feel was destined. I know he needs me and Allah sent me to his call and that he is now so confused & has lost his way & faith that all things turn out if he only jump and trust. He is torn between doing right and right. I want to leave him with a lasting poinyant reference to help him in his life and situation. As I know he truly loves me & is sacrificing everything in letting go. I would like to leave him with some healing words to calm his soul, & be a comfort to him always for the rest of his life & remind him of my love. I cannot yet read arabic and have an english translatory Quran. As more knowledgable muslims, please can you recommend a prayer and passage I can send him to last him forever in dark times. Please can you recommend some Surahs and passages that relate to our situation & will bring him ease and strength to move forward and comfort him always in the path he has now chosen. I am really broken. But want to send him off with my love and to let him know I understand so his soul is not troubled always, as I truly love this man as only Allah knows.
Answer Asalamu aleykum
I had a reversion experience similar to yours, ma sha Allah, in 1986.
As far as your current situation, the most comforting suggestion I can make is that, besides from offering your fard and sunnah salat and reading the Holy Qur'an daily, you recite athkar, daily phrases of praise and repentance. Reciting athkar is a sunnah. Everybody in my family does it, even the housekeeper, and we notice a difference in the way the day goes when we miss it.
Here are some websites where you can read or download athkar.
Be comforted in the knowledge that marriage is a matter of naseeb. If Allah has chosen you for each other, you will marry. If not, you cannot, no matter what you do, and Allah, Who knows everything, past, present, and future, knows what is best for us, better than we can possibly know ourselves.
