Jehovah`s Witness/disfellowshipped and in darkness


after manny years of being dissfellowshipped i stopped touching the unclean thing and decided to try and make my way back to jehovah. For 4 months i attended meetings and i might have been close to reinstatment. Then a problem came into my life my wife left me for another man and i got drunk 1 night and commited fornication destroying any healing i was reciving from jehovah. I felt so bad that 4 months went down the drain and a didnt stand up againt satans test so i gave up. I went entierly back to the old personality with the attitude i might as well live for myself and enjoy life the best i can before i die because the truth is so hard for me and i fear that even my best efforts to try again would just fail so it wouldnt matter anyways. Today i have quit smoking for 3 weeks quit playing world of warcraft online game (my number 1 source for entertainment that will keep my mind off of all my problems and keep me in a spritually vegestative state).I have returned to the meetings and close to submitting my letter once again for reinstatment. Heres the things that deeply bother me as of now. This is a brief timeline of my beggining with jehovah. It was a great joy to learn the truth and couldnt wait to be a witness i studied with a wonderful elder with great insight. I became a publisher was denied baptizim (now that im older im ok with that decision)but i fell away thinking i wasnt good enough. I entered a period of wrongdoing drinking, smoking weed and gave up. The brothers kept coming to me and convinced me to come back so i did and progressed very well even became baptized. The number one thing holding me back is the past sins i commited becuase they are also crimes that only jehovah and the elders know about. They showed me the scripture "all things are lawful but not all build up" hope u get the reference. Basically saying to me what i did was wrong and is punishable in a court but letting authorities punish me might not build me up and told me to keep on doing what i was doing and that was going to the meetings. But carrying those past sins is a great burden its wasnt murder i assure u of that but it was a sexual based crime after i knew the truth but not baptized. So how would i know if i could just forget it all and move on or am i just fooling myself. What if i chose to listen to that elder and forget it all only to be condemed in the end for it? would jehovah hold me accountible on the basis of me just following council from an elder? i have become like those seeds that fall upon rocky soil i recived the truth with the greatest joy i continued a while until a problem rose. I have to work 2 jobs and miss the meeting on sunday because of work. i have no peace i have failed with jehovah but im still going to the meetings and trying my best to keep clean. Also around 2008 i was drunk and cussed at jehovah told him the f word that i hated how we had to go thru all of this but later felt regret for fear i commited the unforgivable sin. So thats it i feel like my past sins are not forgiven and and i commited the unforgivable sin and my repeated atempts of trying and failing shows i have no integrity. But im trying to make my way back even after all of this becuase i just want to get what i had when i fisrt learned the truth and that was peace knowing jehovah and the deep love i had but sadly i feel like i wont have the time or means of healing to reach that goal should i just quit or should i keep fighting?
If i keep fighting for the truth and make my stand all the way to the end but dont make it how great that sadness will be for me.
If i quit i can make peace with myself and accept death because at least its not a hidden path but both seem the same so its all vanity for me. In fact my everday is vanity just full of things to help me survive to the next day to do the same thing work sleep workk sleep etc.. The only thing that is not vanity is going to the meetings and i cant even sing the "He will call song because i tear up" im hurting inside and hate myself for all the stupid mistakes i made and just feel like im already judged what should i do brother rando? anyways ill still go to the meeting and try

Go to the Elders.....  "Is there anyone suffering evil among YOU? Let him carry on prayer. Is there anyone in good spirits? Let him sing psalms.  Is there anyone sick among YOU? Let him call the older men of the congregation to [him], and let them pray over him, greasing [him] with oil in the name of Jehovah.  And the prayer of faith will make the indisposed one well , and Jehovah will raise him up. Also, if he has committed sins, it will be forgiven him.  Therefore openly confess YOUR sins to one another and pray for one another, that YOU may get healed. A righteous man’s supplication, when it is at work, has much force." (James 5:13-16)  

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Brother Rando is a student of Prophecy and one of Jehovah's Witnesses in good standing with the Faithful and Discreet slave. His interests are directed towards how the time of the end would come about. The earth’s population today is going through a physical, spiritual and emotional tribulation that has been prophesied concerning a time of distress as it enters into a cleansing period of removing wickedness by means of God’s Kingdom. (Daniel 12:1) Brother Rando’s discussions are of keen interest to many who await for God's Kingdom. He asserts that his discussions are just that, and not Prophecies, nor does he make the claim to be inspired. His authority is the Bible. He proclaims the year 2034 to be of very high interest to all. Like a GPS, that gives Insight to location, 2034 allows us to gauge where we are in the stream of time according to God’s Will. His Goal is to educate the public that Jehovah Witnesses accepted the Sacrifice in Christ, whose Blood was shed for many as a ransom and exercise faith in "Jesus Christ" for salvation. (Romans 10:9) Why Study the Bible?


In Brother Rando’s research of the Bible, he found scripture does interpret other scripture. The answer to how long a day was, according to God’s Will was found in Psalms 90:4 and 2 Peter 3:8. This is vital to gaining understanding in how we are to measure time in God’s view. Spiritually and not fleshy or physical. A day in heavens time is a thousand years to us. It’s by this method we can measure time and where we are in the stream of time of the end. In answer Jesus said to them: “Break down this temple, and in three days I will raise it up.” (John 2:19) Was Jesus indicating that he was the Temple of God, God’s Kingdom? And that the temple would in fact be destroyed or broken down? According to God’s Word, the following scripture is the basis for Salvation. “For if you publicly declare that ‘word in your own mouth,’ that Jesus is Lord, and exercise faith in your heart that God raised him up from the dead, you will be saved.” (Romans 10:9) In order for John 2:19 and Romans 10:9 to come in line, did Jesus utter a prophecy about God's Kingdom since he stated, “I will raise it up”? IF the basis for salvation is that Jesus is Lord and that God raised him up. We can conclude that Jesus did not raise himself up, but it was God that raised him from the dead since he was dead and conscious of nothing at all. (Ecc 9:5) Jesus prophesied that HE would raise God's Kingdom. (Rev 5:10) Jesus was speaking prophetically of raising the temple within the third day of a thousand years. Jesus warned Peter not to think the thoughts of man. (Matthew 16:23) Based on 2 Peter 3:8 we are able to determine the time frame to when God’s Kingdom would be raised up by Jesus Christ. Jesus was put to death on Nisan 14, 33CE. The two days would actually represent two thousand years and we come up with the year 2033. Jesus stated,“in three days I will raise it up.” So the third day is upon us in 2034. SEE the unseen things!

“I fully support, acknowledge and cooperate with *The Faithful Steward and Its' Governing Body* of Jehovah’s Witnesses.” I am property of the "Faithful and Discreet Slave" that Jesus, my brother, is appointing over his belongings. This Slave is the Governing Body of Jehovah's Earthly Organization known Worldwide as "Jehovah's Witnesses". When the Mountain-like organizations act against God's chosen people after Babylon has been destroyed, Jehovah will slaughter those who are touching the pupils of his eyes. Even though Babylon the Great is spoken as a woman and she has fallen in (Rev. 14:8), the sacred secret is that she is not a woman at all, but the World of False Religion that will be utterly destroyed by the personal hand of Jesus Christ as (King Abaddon) in the coming Great Tribulation never to be found again! (Matthew 24:14)

Secular Historians point to the Temple in Jerusalem being destroyed in 70 AD by the Romans. But was Jesus Christ speaking in a physical sense since that Temple is non-existent today? Jehovah Witnesses assert that Jesus under inspiration of Holy Spirit was actually prophesying about his spiritual body as the only means to approach his Heavenly Father. (John 14:6) Not the Temple made by hands or his fleshy body as Christendom claims, but his spiritual body, known as the Body of Christ. (1 Cor 12:27) This would actually be the Collective Representative of God’s Kingdom in how we can approach the One True God JEHOVAH. Brother Rando is not the first to come up with this time frame. In the first part of 1914, the Bible Students known as International Bible Students Association discussed the “time of trouble” on the printed page called The Bible Students Monthly. Early in 1914, an issue of The Bible Students Monthly was issued with the large bold heading “END OF WORLD IN 1914? Some have quoted the large headline of this tract as proof that Russell was expecting the “end of the world” in 1914. However, such neglect the subheading under the larger headline, which states: “NOT THE VIEW OF PASTOR RUSSELL NOR OF I.B.S.A.” International Bible Students Association: "Nevertheless, when viewed from God’s standpoint, we are still “shortly after” 1914. Although Russell himself did not think the time of trouble would be this long, he did allow that it could be. It is possible that the time allotted for this period is 120 years (1914+120=2034), but that these days will be “cut short” some time before they are allowed to reach their end. We do not put this forth as a “prophecy”, nor would we feel anything was wrong if 2034 came and went and nothing had happened as far the full binding of Satan and the destruction of his empire is concerned. All things are in God’s hands."

According to the discussion, 1914 represents the year that the earth would enter into a time of distress and that time limit could very well be 120 years. Which again, brings up the year 2034. The year 1914 is derived by a prophecy of the end of the Gentile times. Brother Rando insists that we should not live by a date, but to use this time to get right with God. Jesus continually pointed that the people who were on the earth when he would raise God’s Temple would be like those people in Noah’s time, taking no note. Where do the 120 years come from? If we read Genesis 6:3, most people think of this scripture in the fleshy sense of man’s lifespan. But could there be a spiritual meaning, giving those with Insight a divine warning? The Bible does say, “make secret the words and seal up the book, until the time of [the] end.” (Daniel 12:4) Could it be, this world has entered into it’s Last Days in 1914? (1 Timothy 3:1-5) Yet there is another scripture that helps us measure the time. In Ecclesiastes 6:6 it reads, “Even supposing that he has lived a thousand years twice over and yet he has not seen what is good, is it not to just one place that everyone is going?” The chapter talks about vanity and that if a person actually lived two thousand years without God’s Kingdom we are all heading to the same place. Since death was the punishment, we would need God’s Kingdom to conquer death, the place we all are heading. A thousand years twice over is two thousand years. Simple math again brings us to the time of 2034, when the second thousand years has been brought to it’s finish. Could Christ Millennial reign be from 2034 to 3034? We don’t know. Jesus stated, he would raise God’s Temple in the third day, so we can expect God's Kingdom to be fully operating sometime between the years 2034 and 3034. However, Jesus Christ was risen first thing on the very morning in the third day. Most Bible readers are in agreement that Christ does rule for a thousand years.

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Armageddon is the actual cleansing of the earth from all wickedness. If in the literal sense, it would consist of angels coming down from heaven to bring death to all those rejecting the Kingdom of God. But if it is spiritual, Armageddon could very will take place without the knowledge that it is actually occurring. If this is the case, then Armageddon would commence without the knowledge that the wicked are simply dying off. There seems to be evidence in scripture to how God destroyed the forefather’s in the wilderness. They died off in the wilderness at the hand of the destroyer without knowing of such, as Paul eloquently explains in 1 Cor.....

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