AboutBlue Sleighty Expertise I will do my best to answer any legitimate question. If I can NOT answer it- I will be happy to provide references to someone that I believe can help.
Experience I have been a lesbian all of my life. I have had an active and adventurous sex life. I am published and widely known writer of lesbian erotica.
Education/Credentials I have an AA from Texas Academy of Art. I write professionally and am respected and loved in the genre of lesbian erotica.
Question I have always been excited by women who catch my eye...I have never allowed myself to pursue another woman, although I have come really close a couple of times. I guess I find it "safer" to look but not touch. I have been surrounded by lez family members and friends forever, some of which I had noooo idea. I was only able to admit to myself how I really feel recently (year) I see soooo many problems with relationships and yet I know I am missing so much. I dont know where to start, I read books love erotica and yet well, I dont think I have the guts to tell someone I am attrackted to them. I did once, she was sweet and very straight, and of course I never heard from her again. I know... I am whining other than being chicken, whats going on with me?
Answer Vicki,
Even when you KNOW FOR SURE that you are gay, it is scary to admit it to yourself. You might just be curious. But- you will never know for sure until you have an experience with a woman. And, I do not necessarily mean a sexual experience or relationship. Sex comes in many flavors, and they all taste pretty good. Although it is important- it is not as important as discovering whether or not you could actually fall in love with a woman.
It is easiest to meet possibly interested females at lesbian bars. Another good place to meet lesbians is the "lesbian and gay" section of book stores. And, MySpace is EXCELLENT for meeting women.(I met my girlfriend on MySpace. We now live together. And, I have met many other women on MySpace, some of whom have become my friend.)
All relationships have their problems. Relationships between two women are no different in that department. And being gay is not easy. Especially if you decide to 'out' yourself. It causes problems with work, and the family usually freaks OUT.
If you are questioning your sexual orientation- it is quite possible that you are gay. I have always known that I loved women, but I tried to play it off (even to myself) that I was bisexual. I tried to force myself to do the 'right thing' and got married to a man whose heart I eventually broke because I fell in love with a woman that I worked with within the first year of my marriage. It was not until I was 30 that I was willing to come to terms with my sexuality and embrace the gay lifestyle. Since I did that- I have never been happier. I love my life. I have a wonderful, beautiful daughter, and an excellent girlfriend.
It sounds like you need to make some gay friends, and see if you are truly gay. That's the only way to find out.
Be happy. Be true to yourself. Feel free to write to me, if you need to. And- I'm on MySpace. I'll be happy to be your sounding board.
