Question solomon says that if you hide your hatred, you get a lying tongue. I do not
want to lie, and i do not want to hate G-d. But, in my lifetime, i have been
raped three times, i have contracted schizophrenia, i have contracted manic
depression, and my father died. This whole time, ever since i was introduced
to the concept of G-d when i was about 9, i never stopped believing.
Therefore, if...if i told G-d i hate him for it...if i blame it on him....would he
mind? Because if i say i hate him, it does not necesarrily mean i do, for how
can a man truly know if he loves or hates G-d? to say you love him is to
boast... If i said i hated him, it would be a way of me expressing that he's
hurt me...and it would therefore be an effort to get him to not hate me...is
that loving? i'm really scared. please could you help me?
Answer Unfortunately bad things happen to good people. Know that G-d doesn't give us more than we can handle and that we must cross, with G-d's help, the mountains placed in our path. It is permissible to be angry with G-d but one should not hate anyone, including G-d. "Be angry, sin not". G-d knows our heart so if you have said that you hate G-d but really don't, I don't believe He will hold it against you. I would not continue to do so and pray for guidance in handling your situations and forgiveness for any hatred you've had in your heart. G-d loves you. Pay it forward. Shalom!
