Expert: Eli Hadar - 10/10/2009

Question
I heard on tovia singer show not long ago that christians our so afraid of burning in hell, so many things I believe in, in my growing up, our so different, it scares me.I want so bad in my heart just want to live for the L-rd, more and more I want to study Torah, and the hebrew scritures, when I read in the new testiment, I say is it true, then I get scared, since I was never open to the torah growing up,yeah I could blame my parents, thats not right, I was taken away at three years old, but I do know one thing, hashem said he would never leave me ALONE, he has never done this. keep writing to me with anwsers to what to do, and one very important thing 3was not done to me circumsize was not done to me, that is why I feel G-d moves from me, Iam 58 now, I was hurt down there my forskin was torn, that is my cheap circumsize  for me, but I dont want Hashem to turn away from me for that, it might seem crazy, can you help me. Frank

Answer
Hi Frank.
I think the best thing for you to do is to find a right teacher. I recommend you find a synagogue and start attending; just go to services a few times and see if you can be relaxed in that atmosphere. Make an appointment with a Rabbi and explain your situation. I think you're beating yourself up for nothing - if you haven't been circumsized properly, that too can  be fixed but of course it needs to be done by a certified mohel, in a kosher manner, and via a proper procedure. Hashem won't turn away from you for this reason - I promise you that. Do you know that most Russian Jews (millions of them) were never circumsized because religion practice was not permitted in the Soviet Union. If you're a Jew - you're a Jew, and if you feel that you need to correct your path to become closer to G-d - you should absolutely follow your calling and do it - but do it the right way, with proper teaching and support.

I wish you the best. Please ask me any specific questions you'd like.

Eli