About Kelli Expertise I can answer questions related to childhood rape and sexual abuse and the effects of those experiences such as PTSD, chemical dependency, relationship conflicts, and coping strategies.
Experience I am a survivor of childhood sexual abuse.
I have been a part of counseling, support groups, AMAC for years.
I have taken roles in peer support and peer counseling.
I am very well rehearsed in psychological therapy goals, roles, plans, and terms.
I worked in a Psychiatric Hospital for many years with Children, Teenagers, and Adults-- as well as Chemical Dependency.
I have been trained in and can perform psychological assessments.
Education/Credentials I graduated from college to receive my Nursing Degree.
I am currently enrolled in a RN-BSN degree
which will continue into a Master's Degree program.
I have a technical school certificate as a Psychiatric Assistant.
Question Hi I am 15 I was raped when I was 12 buy my uncle and again 2months ago
buy my friend. After it happen when I was 12 I started taking pills and drinki g
liquar alot. It's like I am num I have night mares. My grandma died a little
while ago and she was the. Closes person to me and I felt nothing when she
died I never cried of anything. What can I do 2 get past the rape
Answer I am so sorry that this happened to you. That is a lot to deal with and a lot to keep bottled up inside. Have you been able to talk with anyone about this? Is there an adult that you can trust to talk to about what happened or about what you are feeling?
I understand that you may want to numb out all of the things that you are feeling right now. But taking pills and drinking alcohol can only lead to more problems down the road. It's not a long term solution or plan. Those feelings will keep popping up when you least expect it. They can be overwhelming and color other aspects of your life. There are people out there who can help you process what happened and how to cope with all of the emotions that it brings up.
Also, I am so sorry that your grandma just died.
Don't feel guilty for not crying. Don't feel bad about that. I am sure that she knew how much you loved her. Sometimes when something really bad or traumatic happens to us, there's a part of us that shuts off. I think it's a protection thing. Like if you started to cry over one thing, the gate would be open and all of your thoughts and feelings would come rushing out. The nightmares can be a part of how your mind is trying to deal with things. All of it is ok.
Be kind to yourself. You are coping the best way you can right now.
But you need help. There are a lot of resources out there for you. Since you are 15, you may need some adult help making those resources available to you. Is there anyone out there that you trust who can help you? A parent, neighbor, teacher,... anyone?
Please let us know. If you need some online resources or if you just need to talk about it some more, please feel free to write back. You can label your message "private" if that helps.
Hang in there, Alex. You are not alone. And you can get through this. In the meantime, please be safe and be kind to yourself.
