Expert: Chloe - 8/13/2007

Question
hi my name is fran and i am 18 and im in desprite need of some advice , my cousin thom is 18 and we get on really well but one night last week he asked me for a 'favour',when i asked him what it was he told me to come upstairs , we both went in his room and he shut the door, he told me that he wasnt feeling well and that he had a lump on his penis,when i told him to tell someone he said he couldnt b/c he thought he caught something after having sex with a friend of the family much older than him(an std) he told me that i was the only person that knew and could take a look, as it was getting bigger, i said NO but then realized that he could be in trouble, i agreed, and he lead me into the bathroom, where he dropped his pants. i bent down to take a closer look as i could see anything there and he shoved his penis in my face and pushed my head harder on to his it. i pushed away and ran out of the bathroom. we were alone at the time and i hid in the kitchen till i got picked up, since that night i have developed a sexual attraction to him, even though he is my cousin and he did this terrible thing to me !! is it my hormones or am i a freek ?? i have never felt this way before, until this happened. we haven't spoke since, should i tell him how i feel ??  should i forgive an forget ??? or should i tell someone what he did ??? please help as i don't know what to do . fran

Answer
Thanks for the question, Fran. First off, this is not your fault, you should not be ashamed, and you are no freak. What happened to you is wrong and I personally think telling a parent is a very good choice. I know it is scary and if you are afraid or embarrassed you do not have to use details.
You are at an age where your hormones are at the peek and
it is not wrong or weird to have sexual attractions. I, however, do not think sharing this with your cousin is a good choice. You will eventually meet a boy and have the same feelings towards him. But until then, you should most certainly tell somebody, because what happened to you is wrong. You can pray about it and you can eventually forgive him, but never forget.
Good luck, Fran.