About Luna Expertise I would love to help whoever needs help, with the suicide prevention, just a person who wants to listen and is ready to help
Experience Strangers make Best friends
i was at the edge once and i managed to rise up alone with the help of some people, that's why i believe i can help because no one would understand the depression and alot of people say it is silly what some people go through, i believe that help can come from a person who has been through the same thing. and at the same time not alot of people like to share with parents or go to a doctor, thats why i am here.
Expert: Luna Date: 7/7/2008 Subject: Cant take the pain anymore my whole life is pain.
Question QUESTION: I was born with a curved spine.now i have 4 herniated disks in back an 1 in my neck<+lat spinal stenosis+spurring+schmorls nodes ect.Mean doctors are no help at all pain mgmt class phy therpy ect. read my file doc writes like im a liar/con people say back /neck pain work trough it LAZY,bones crushing on nerves,unimaginable relentlesspain,girlfriend left.i get stuck on floor for days 3-5 at a time.i hate the doctors could care less.wanna kill bastard docs need to leave this world to end my pain wake up pain cant sleep pain my whole life is pain,$400 to doc=go home n take advil?doc will take last dollar n i cant be broke homeless in this kind of constant pain,met a girl wants me alot but im in to much pain torture,no one wants to here about pain 1 option left death ive been so good n kindhearted rescued many stray dogs layed flat cralled out n pulled a frozkid out of ice years ago.doer of good deeds god will please take me out of this terrible world soon i cant see him lettin me suffer so much longer.i look great strong upper body ect,but my bones are crushing on nerves to groin=down leg/neck down arm/neck went rilly bad 4 mts ago keeps gettin worse,constant pain f n kill me.docs are no help i wont let um cut on me,i hate the mean docs thir nasty n could care less no more pain in heaven this world is hell.
ANSWER: I agree with you, there is no pain in heaven. But since you are a smart guy you would know that suicide might not lead you to heaven.
and death is not the only option for this to stop. you can always work through this, even though it might be hard, but you never know what God has for you in the future, by killing yourself now you would be giving up on your future which might be better than now =]
so you say the doctors think that there is nothing wrong with you? well ...you might want to change your doctor and go check up with someone who is an expert in bones. Now sometimes the human being gives up... he thinks that no matter what is he going to do nothing is going to change. But, that is one reason why the pain wont go, you are too focused on the fact that the pain won't go and you won't concentrate on the facts that it might actually work if you set your mind into it. Like pain management classes, work through them. even if you are now you can't imagine how your attitude towards it can help you feel better. There is always a choice, a person always has his own choice, you either choose to give up and leave behind you what is hidden for you, or you can always fight because again you never know what would happen. And since you say you are a nice person (and i think you are) i don't think that God would want you to suffer more, just stick to life, and pray to your God. This is what you can do for now, oh and one more thing find someone who would be near you in all those times and who would never leave, which doesn't need to be a girlfriend, you can always find comfort in a friend, parents or someone else, maybe even someone who is with you in anger management classes.
i wish you all the best, and keep me posted, tell me which choice you are going to follow (think hard because as far as i can see it, you still have a precious chance)
if you need anything else, am always here
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QUESTION: someone with me in anger mgmt class?where did tou get that,ya the doctors can read my C.T. scan results. hook your self up to a power line n burn n shock yourself n youd have 1/2 an id the pain i feel, pain mgmt class been there what a joke,phy therapy no help.who wants to hang out with sombody crawlin around the floor in sev pain all the time.arnt you snide n condisending anger mgmt class.
Answer ok you know what you are probably correct, and yes i should hook myself up to a power line and shock myself then maybe i would tell you what you want to hear....how about that? I can't imagine the pain that you are feeling because i couldn't take half of it? does that make you feel better?
But would that change anything? you are still going to wake up the next morning with the pain that you have. right? and i wont. So that brings us up to the conclusion ...I am not the center of the problem here...We should focus on you, and you know how can we do that? how can i help you? well believe me i can help you way more than i already am doing now when you stop focusing all the anger that you have inside of you on me. because again i am not the center of the problem. Now how about those doctors? they read your C.T scan then what? what do they tell you? that you are perfectly fine? that you are more than ok? that maybe you are pretending that you are in pain?! have you ever considered the fact that you should sit with them and ask them.." listen doctor you say am fine...ok then YOU as a doctor HAVE to explain to me why am I feeling this pain" after all it is his job as a doctor to find out whats wrong with you and the least he can do to you is give you some drugs to make it go away. am i right ?
Now yes i have considered anger management classes. for you! you have a lot of anger stored and you are shooting it in the wrong places, you are angry because you were born with the curved spine and now you are throwing your pain on the doctors. It is the wrong way to deal with this. And believe me if a person is worth being with, others would want to be with him even if he can't lift a finger.
