About Monique Expertise If you're feeling like hurting yourself in any way or having thoughts of committing suicide, send one here. I can understand and feel the pain that some people may not understand since I have gone through most of these scenarios. I have had thoughts of killing myself and I have cut myself. If you think nobody understands, I can. Ages are not necessary but they would help out. Remember, someone out there cares.
Experience I have been there before with feelings of depression and suicide and hurting myself a while back. I've gotten myself and many friends through it so will try my best to help you out.
Organizations I do some volunteer work such as participating in walks and volunteering at a local library. I also play an instrument in the school band.
Education/Credentials I am currently going into highschool in enrichment classes. (14 years of age)
Expert: Monique Date: 7/3/2008 Subject: I'm thinking of ending it all
Question QUESTION: i cant stand it anymore i made too many mistakes and hurt alot of people i know nobody wants me here my family loves me but i think they dont want me. i fight with everone i cant get along. i cant tell nobody about this i'm so afraid i dont want to cut anymore i dont want to pretend i'm okay i'm to ashamed to tell my parents i'm depressed and i wanna kill myself.
it seems easy to take away this pain but i'm scared and i want to know wht i should do? i'm only 16 and i think my life is over.
ANSWER: Hey there Shawnee,
As my mother once told me, thoughts are powerful. Whatever you think, people will start to believe. If your family loves you, they obviously want. Of course everyone has arguments with people. Your life isn't over because you have so many opportunities out there for you. If you're ashamed to tell your parents, then call a hotline and you can remain anonymous if you wish. Talk to them or to a guidance counselor. You should let your feelings out and talk to someone. You are wanted. If you don't want to cut yourself, that shows you still want to be here which is good. Again, there is so much you can do!
I hope I could help you out, even a little bit. If you have any other questions, let me know.
Shawnee, your family loves you and everybody argues with people. I don't get along with a lot of people so don't worry. Become positive and everything will work out.
Truly,
Monique.
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QUESTION: thank u alot u have helped me but i still cant talk to anyone and i dont know why i think being depressed is a bad thing nobody should know about. i'm just killing myself trin to keep it all inside. nothing last forever everything dies every person dies so why not die now? i am sorry if i bug u with these quistons i just cant tell anyone else and in the end suicide wins cuz i know i'm goin to give in and nobody will know cuz i'm so afraid to tell them.
ANSWER: You're not bugging me at all. Things are eating away at you and you should let it out. I understand how you're afraid to tell people that you are depressed. I've been through it with telling my parents. It'll hurt more if you keep it in. Suicide won't win if you don't give up so keep on fighting! You don't have to tell someone you know about the depression but rather you can call a hotline or speak to guidance counselors online. People won't shun or despise you if you tell them. Although there are some rude people out there, there are also very kind and understanding ones as well.
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QUESTION: yeah i kind of understand what u are sayin. and i know it will hurt me more if i keep it in. but i dont know. u actally care and are helping me. i wuz scared and still am but not as much. i think i'll tell my parents but i want to tell u the reason i wuz so scared to tell them.
its because my couisen wuz goin to kill himself and he got help my mom asked why he thought about that and told him it wuz stupid to say u want to kill yourself. dont you see what if she hates me if i tell her i want to kill myself?
Answer When you talk to your mom or dad, sit them down and first tell them how upset you feel because of certain reasons. Then explain to them why you started cutting like maybe you couldn't tell anyone because you were afraid or it seemed like the only way out. Say you felt like dying because this and this happened but you want their love and support so it won't happen because you are afraid. I'm pretty sure your mom won't hate you if you tell her because she cares about you and loves you. Just explain to them and ask if they could help you get through it. This is what I did with my parents and they understood and just asked me to talk to them first if I ever felt like hurting myself.
