About Luna Expertise I would love to help whoever needs help, with the suicide prevention, just a person who wants to listen and is ready to help
Experience Strangers make Best friends
i was at the edge once and i managed to rise up alone with the help of some people, that's why i believe i can help because no one would understand the depression and alot of people say it is silly what some people go through, i believe that help can come from a person who has been through the same thing. and at the same time not alot of people like to share with parents or go to a doctor, thats why i am here.
Question I have had several near death experiences i saw jesus and he took me to god beautiful blissful experience, god showed me what would be if i stayed in haven and what would be if i went back to earth i knew they wanted me here so i came back, i remember god said that it would be a very tough road for me and there would be a high cost but i knew i had to come back, anyway i am 40 signle never had a relationship i am scared of women i cant recipicate female advances so i have always been single, i do not have many friends i sit alone all day every day i was put into foster care at 13 that is how much my family cares for me right now i keep thinking of suicide to go back to god and to gretel a girl i know who suicied you see she came over my place we were good friends and everything was there and she asked me if i wanted to make love i kept thinking yes but couldnt get the words out i was stuck in time then she ran off and her friend came over a few hours later and told me that she killed her self i live with this still and i want to go to where she went i have nothing in this world the humons are doomed i at times nolonger wnat to act to help people i just want to close off to the humons, i cannot go to hospital because of the inhumane treatment i receive long story but the worst incident i am not sure of the exact doses but i was given a big brown halaparidol tablet then 25 mL liquid haldol then 2 mg cogenten then 10 mg stelazine then 10 mg diazapam then 20 minutes later i was in inhuman pain beyond description begging god from the most quiet place in my mind to save me , then he did and i saw his beautiful face again and i smiled then the nurses said like that do u i will turn it up i think i was given ect electric shock then i saw god wave his hand over their souls and a darkness darker than the blackest black enter them then i was resuscitated, this is the reason i canot go back to hospital this was the worst they are rude mean nasty to me in all ways even ways i cant say they mess with my head every way they can so now all i think about is going back to god and hopefully Gretel i have no one in this life so i struggle to keep my self going i do not know how long i can hang onto the spark of life i dont want to go to any churches as i do not believe in the right handed conservative political views they push i just want to go back to god the pain is everywhere physical mental emotional its too much
Answer you know, you never told me what was the reason you decided to come back.who wanted you here? Anyways i am sure that being in the hands of Jesus or God is really beautiful..it IS a bliss...but since you decided to come back, you decided that there is more to this life than what it is giving you i believe there is a reason. Now since many people believe in many different things, i am not sure wether you are going to agree with me on this or not, but I believe that there is a reason for everything in this world, there is a reason why you came back and there is a reason for your birth in the first place. I mean, don't you think that if the ALMIGHTY LORD wants you up there he won't get you? he could have prevented you from being saved in a way or another from those near death experiences, but he didn't, have you ever thought that he is trying to help you in that way...? he is giving you another chance! but at the same time giving you a wake up call!
Am not going to lie to you, there comes times where i Hate every single human being infront of me , there is a time where i just want them all away from me because i feel safe being alone. and i lie to myself thinking that i am happy. same comes to men ( i am a woman) there are sometimes when i am afraid of them and i don't want them near me. BUT ! i came to the conclusion that not every person is going to hurt you. Not every person will throw you to foster care at 13 (which by the way am sure there is a good reason for that) and not every hospital will treat you the same. You have just stumbled across the bad side of people, so you decided to give up on them and be alone. But, here is my advice. You should STEP UP. i am saying step up out of that safety shell..you will NEVER know good friends if you are alone. and you will NEVER have a relationship with a lady if you are going to stay like this. you have to have the courage...it is ok if you will get hurt ..this is what makes us humans we FEEL....yet again you have to put the idea that "not every woman is going to hurt me" there is no reason why you should be intimidated by them. you just have to find the perfect person.
You can hold on to the sparke of life because you have been given a chance that many wish they would have, and that is from God.. and there is no need to go to church if you don't believe in what they do, God is not only in the church he is everywhere and he listens to you everywhere. Don't lose this chance, instead use it as a wake up call...and as a time to step up.
:] am always here if you need me. Take Care and keep me posted
